Angee's World

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2007-03-11T18:08:00.001-04:00

I had something to say but I totally forgot what it was. Welcome to my world.

Imams Kicked Off Plane For Praying

2006-11-21T15:51:00.000-05:00

Six Imams Removed From Twin Cities Flight - AOL News

The title says it all. Honestly, what's next? Doesn't the first admendment protect our right to practice our religion? Now praying could get one kicked off a plane. That's just retarded. I've prayed in the airport before, does this mean I can't anymore? Seriously this is BS!! I just don't understand. These men did NOTHING. Why were the police called and why were they removed? How is prayer threatening? Why are people so stupid?

Many Muslims are making a lot of effort to educate people about Islam, but it seems as if it's falling on deaf ears. Things are not getting better for us; as we can see, they're getting worse! No one even makes any attempt anymore to justify their prejudice and discrimination. Islam does not promote terrorism, nor do I, but the way things are going, it's not hard to see why Muslims want to get back at the US. What's going on here is oppression and I foresee that things are going to get worse before they get better. May Allah protect the Muslims and punish those who perpetuate injustice. Ameen.

New Season of Sleeper Cell

2006-11-12T17:47:00.000-05:00

I saw a teaser for the new season of Sleeper Cell on Showtime last night. I CANNOT wait for Dec. 10. That show was so awesome and totally underrated. I like that it gives a complex view of terrorism and the terrorists on that show aren't "stereotypical." What I don't like is that while the protagonist, Darwyn, is knowledgeable about Islam, speaks Arabic, and is supposed to be a practicing Muslim on the show, he goes around fornicating. Why not let him act the way Muslims are supposed to so that non-Muslims would get an idea of that? All they see on this show are hypocritical Muslims from the good guy, Darwyn, to the bad guys, the real terrorists, who also happen to drink and fornicate, as well as kill innocent people.

The funniest thing to me was how he refused to eat pork while he was having dinner with the girl he's sleeping with. Since when did eating pork become like the hugest sin in Islam. Seriously I know people who would drink and fornicate, but God forbid someone tries to give them pork. I don't get it. It's like ok, I'm going to do every wrong thing imaginable, but keep pork away from me! Okie dokie, that makes a lot of sense

Marriage--WTH is the big deal???

2006-09-02T00:09:00.000-04:00

It's been a chaotic summer and I've basically been a refugee so that's why I haven't updated. That and I didn't really have anything to say about anything...until now. On the first day I went back to work, one of my coworkers started asking me when I'm getting married etc. etc. I explained to her that I work full time and I go to school full time, and I'm also doing an internship for my teaching license. When would I have time to meet a guy, let alone get married, and be a decent wife?? I explained this to her and she said these days women are waiting so long to get married and then when they finally want to get married, they can't find anyone to marry them or they can't have kids. Now, I'm used to the marriage question from the Islamic community, but my cousin got married this summer and I guess my family took it to mean it's my turn. Seriously, it seems I can't go a day without someone bringing up marriage to me. People give me a break, I'm 22! Yes I know that's old by Islamic and even Guyanese standards, but come on. I don' t even know if I'm ready for the responsibilities of marriage or if I even want them.

Why is marriage the end all be all to so many Muslim women and women the world over? Why am I being looked down upon because I'm choosing to finish my education before I get married and not vice versa? Marriage is seriously not that big of a deal to me. I understand that it's half my deen, but frankly my life won't end if I don't get married and my life is not lacking because I'm not married. I'm somewhat financially dependent on my parents now and when I leave their house, I refuse to be dependent on anyone else. I don't want to put myself in a position where I need a man to take care of me. Some men use being the sole breadwinner as leverage to get away with whatever they want to (abuse, infidelity, etc.), and their wives can't do anything because they're not independent. I see it happen all the time and I refuse to let it happen to me. It's fine and dandy if some girls want to get married at 18. If that works for them then hooray but that's not for me. I need to know I can get a decent job if I need to and not to toot my own horn, but I'm intelligent. I'm really not trying to sound arrogant, but why shouldn't I live up to my potential?

I hate it when other people think they know what's best for me. I don't take it upon myself to tell anyone how to live their life so why do people feel to need to tell me? I know this one guy who insists that I need to get married and how he'll find me a guy etc etc. Get a freaking grip! This idiot is not married himself, but he desperately wants me to get married. As of right now, I don't need or want anyone to help me find anyone. I think I'd be a good wife, but get it straight: I DON"T NEED TO GET MARRIED. I still don't understand why other people are more worried about when I'll get married than I am. What's it to you anyway? It's not like when I get married it'll be some big event. I'd go the masjid, sign the papers and have a small dinner for family and very close friends. If I take the plunge, I refuse to spend an extravagant amount of money on a wedding. I think it's wasteful and superfluous to have these huge affairs. That's not meant as judgement on anyone. Just personally, I don't intend on throwing away money on a wedding.

Funny enough, the idea of not ever getting married is not what worries me. It's what people will think and say that worries me. I know every where I go I'll carry the stigma of the unmarried woman. People will wonder and talk amongst themselves about what's wrong with me. I'll prolly have to wear a scarlet S (single) or U (unmarried) on my clothing. It's already started, if you can believe that. My aunt has already told me that I need to get married because I don't want to end up like this friend of my mom who's a spinster. Why is that so shameful? Why are people so unnerved by unmarried older women?

Like I said before, in the future maybe I'd like to get married. I intend to try, but it won't be the end of the world if I don't. I want kids, but I can adopt if it comes to that. I don't need anyone feeling sorry for me now or ever because I'm not married. So keep your pity and your advice about marriage to yourselves! I appreciate your concern, but I'm good. There's nothing wrong with me. I'm not a feminazi and I do like men. I just want to get my Masters Degree and a job before I get married. So for right now stop asking me when I'm getting married.

The Last E-Mail I Sent (No Response So Far)

2006-07-06T02:23:00.000-04:00

To Recap. Billy Bob (not his real name) is a Born again Christian that I've been debating with the last few days about Islam. It's obvious to me that he knows nothing about Islam but he fears and hates it, which is the case for most Americans. Scroll down for the beginning. Me in black, Billy Bob in Blue

Me: You are either really stupid or really ignorant or just plain confused. No offense.

u attacked white people and seem to like to forget that
No I didn't. That's a lie. I believe that's called bearing false witness according to the Bible.

all that bless his people the israelites
Exactly how are the israelites Jesus's people if they don't even believe in him. It seems to me Jews are in the same boat as Muslims because they "don't have faith in Christ." Actually Jews are probably in a worse position as far as Christ is concerned because at least he's a revered prophet in Islam. What is he to the Jews? Nothing. A heretic and blasphemer because he called himself the messiah.

Islam attacks christianity,all ove the world
Oh yeah? Like where?

its obvious to me u are not deep into either christianity or islam
You don't know anything about me. No I'm not into Christianity because IM MUSLIM. How can I be into Christianity genius? As for whether I'm "into Islam" I am a practicing Muslim and I do everything that's required of me as a Muslim woman.

i feel u r a young rebellious person who just wants to make a statement,thats ok,but it want save u
My family felt like that at first too but I've been Muslim for over 3 years now and they see my devotion. They know I have no ulterior motives to being Muslim. I believe the people I live with are more accurate judges of the what I'm doing and who I am.

Geoge bush and america is defending what we believe and u better read up,we don't run
Who attacked what America believed? George Bush isn't defending a damn thing. The men and the women in the US Armed Forces are .They risk their lives for an idiot who doesn't know what the hell he's doing. He's a puppet and these men and women are dying because of him. Don't blame Muslims for their deaths. Their deaths are on Bush's hands and whoever sent them to fight.

take that garbage allah stuff back where it belongs
I never insulted your religion and believe me there's a lot that I can say. I just didn't want to be petty but if you want to start with name calling I can do it too. I can blow the whistle on your "monotheistic" pagan based religion starting with the so called "son of God" nonsense. We can go down that road if you want.

i don't want that christian bashing crap being taught to my children and grand children.
I know for a fact I didn't Christian bash but you started Islam bashing. Hmm didn't Jesus say do unto others as you would have them do unto you? If you don't want Christian bashing why are you Islam bashing?

quit backing people that hate and murder
I don't.

you made ur racially motivated statement in your initial respond to the american white soldier.
I stated a historical fact. Name one race of people that has not been oppressed by white people. Just do it. That's not racist, it's history.

and u still are not fooling me.or ant other person that read it
I'm not trying to fool you or anyone else. I'm just having a discussion with you about YOUR biases and YOUR ignorance.

u made it that way,so stop spinning,its not a good way to debate.
I'm not sure what you mean by spinning.

The Debate Continues

2006-07-06T02:20:00.000-04:00

Email #1 Billy Bob: no he's not,some one has brain washed u like islam has.u r what u r because u want to hate.

Email # 2 Billy Bob: you r confused,u attacked white people and seem to like to forget that.yes ,the book u say is garbage says,without faith u can't please god.if u can't understand it,its because u simply don't want to.you u simply read only what u want. the bible says it and i believe it and that settles it. dah!!! u made it clear u don't believe as the bible commands to. ok,its ur soul to gain or lose.trying to defend the only one true God,the alfa and omega,is not needed.he can defend himself,rather nicely. you need to know that u can not ever be good enough.thats why u need jesus as ur personal savior.lmao,defend christ,thats funny.What ur missing in all this is christ defends me and my nation,and all that bless his people the israelites. It is his promise to Abraham. Islam attacks christianity,all ove the world,and they just messed up bringing it to america.you know what i mean. Our nation will never bow to such non sense in religion. trying to put a pretty face on it want work either.No trjan horses here my friend. its obvious to me u are not deep into either christianity or islam.i wish u would receive christ as ur personel savior.its not mean't 4 us to know all things here on earth.if u don't understand that now,u will one day. the words of christ r on t.v. radio,all over the world. Let him who has ears hear.u need ears friend.i feel u r a young rebellious person who just wants to make a statement,thats ok,but it want save u. Yes true faith will save u. it did the thief on the cross.it has everyone who ever believed.and it will u. Geoge bush and america is defending what we believe and u better read up,we don't run. we are god fearing people that dare defend our rights. take that garbage allah stuff back where it belongs,its pagan man made make believe. now u know what i think of it,and so do most americans.always have always will.i don't want that christian bashing crap being taught to my children and grand children.And i don't care i just want anyone that thinks they believe that evil mess to know it. quit backing people that hate and murder .thats wrong. to protect ones self is understandable.please understand ,i don't hate sinners i hate the sin. there is a difference.if i am attacking islam its because they attack my way of life. im speaking of verbally of course.every single thing bin laden said bad about christians and jews is exactly what u sounded like when you made ur racially motivated statement in your initial respond to the american white soldier.and u still are not fooling me.or ant other person that read it. Quit asking me to defend christ,u already agreed u want accept it. thats enough.U cannot ever rattle my faith. i qouated jesus and his deciples repeatedly.at my age,i just don't have time 4 much foolishness.i never get on here and blanket people as all the same,but religions are different.ur skin color does not matter,nor does mine. u made it that way,so stop spinning,its not a good way to debate.

Billy Bob's Last Ditch Attempt And My Responses

2006-07-06T02:15:00.000-04:00

Billy Bob: u really need to listen to u r crazy fundementalist uncle.u r lost,my friend,i quoted u sripture frm christ that covers and answers all ur questions. If u do not accept christ as the one and on;y son of god,u will be lost period.

to embrace is to hang onto something with all ur heart. he is the only way to heaven.period.i quoted this over and over to you.he said that,i didn't. it is ur right to accept that or deny that.a debate over mans wickedness suffices,nothing.only trusting only in jesus or not,is the only real issue.it is not complicated. you don't receieve it through works.you receieve it thru his grace and ur faith. thats all.

Me: So what about this: James 2: 14 What good is it, my brothers, if a man claims to have faith but has no deeds? Can such faith save him?

Billy Bob: Ru 4 real that sounds like something satan would say to christ trying to con fuse or temt. It did not work with christ nor shall it with me. james was admonishing those that say i pray 4 u all the while the person has physical needs. It has nothing to do with salvation. and it does not say will that save you. that is ur or someone elses interpretation. christ died 4 us because we cannot save ourselves. if u are truly wanting salvation u have been told how many times.i trust jesus and u nor satan can raddle that.that is a very silly thing to try and do to me. I was born again long before u were born the first time my friend. i have forgotten more scripture than u obviously will ever know. Thats a shame to. id like to be wrong.islam or any other religion is just an absolute cult to me,because it denies christ as being the son of God,and the only way to heaven. you and i can Quoate bible,koran or anything,but deny christ as the only way,and brag how much u know about him as a testimony to ur unbelief does not impress me.the more u speak to me ,the more u reveal to me. this pagan religion or any pagan religion will not survive the test of time.All thru history,gentiles have worshiped various gods. the God of israel,before he came as jesus,prevailed and he shall reign forever and ever.thats my testimony.

Me: First of all you have not been able to make ONE legitimate claim against Islam except that we don't believe Jesus (pbuh) is God or is the son or whatever. Explain to me and give me evidence of why you believe Jesus is God. Second you didn't answer my question :

So what about this: James 2: 14 What good is it, my brothers, if a man claims to have faith but has no deeds? Can such faith save him?

You said to me that it's scripture that only faith can save you, yet the above is also scripture and James is asking can faith without deeds save you? So what is it? Can faith alone save you or do you need deeds to save you too? I've never bragged to you or try to impress you. I'm simply defending what I believe while you attack it and asking you to defend what you believe.

I Prefer to Have Faith in Allah

2006-07-06T02:11:00.000-04:00

Me: It says in the Quran that Allah guides whom He will and misguides whom He will and whosever Allah guides no one can misguide. It's obvious to me that you've made your mind up about everything and nothing I say can change that unless you're willing to open your mind and listen. You think my soul is lost and I'm going to hell etc. etc. and that's just dandy. The entire congregation of my mom's and my former church thinks that. The peace and the relationship that I have with God indicate to me that I won't go to hell because I'm Muslim but only God knows that. I'm doing what I think God wants me to do and if I go to hell for that so be it. Where in this world do Christians have their land taken away from them? Where are they oppressed simply because they're Christian? Because that's the case in Palestine and the strapping bombs on is a reaction to that oppression. It's not the RIGHT reaction but it is what it is. You have to get it out of your head that every thing Muslims do reflect Islam. Does everything Christians do reflect Christianity? So many Christians are having premarital sex, committing adultery, having children out of wedlock, lying, cheating, stealing, coveting, etc etc. Is that what Christianity teaches? The KKK killed hundreds of innocent blacks and considered themselves Christians. Let's not forget the slave trade. The vatican had a hands off position when it came to slavery and the haulocaust! Is that Christian? It's hypocritical of you to judge all Muslims based on the actions of some because nowhere in the Quran does it say kill innocents, strap bombs to yourselves. You're obviously being close minded and that's a dangerous attitude to have.

Billy Bob Wants Me To Have Faith in Christ

2006-07-06T02:09:00.000-04:00

Billy Bob: i only want the faith in christ. Because it is a living breathiing faith.ha!ha! on the exposed. u have been exposed to entirely to many,religions,to the point that u are confused. u apparently never had a personel relationship with christ.thats sad. christianity is only a religion,to the lost souls of the world.to believers its a way of life.i am not ashamed,so does not bother me that u make such comments.i don't know any christians,in the name of christ strapping bombs 2 kids and blowing up people. islam is. And thats evil. Read the book of ezekial,and revelation. when i know who wins in the end,why would i want to be a part of a the losers. Christ wins in the end. As far as ur ethicnic background,and considering ur initial remarks about the white race,u know those whites that say all those hateful things about blacks or any other race are as wrong as u were.Now,what would christ say.?HE would tell u ,let the man without sin cast the 1st stone.As for this war ,read countless battles in the old testament where the almighty himself ordered his people israel to take cities,and don't even take any spoils.i thought u said u knew all about the bible? I thinkits just like i said. You have bought into this hatred thing,still looking 4 the truth. JESUS SAID ,he was the way ,the truth ,and the life. Anyone that calls on him he will not cast out,he said. i am not,and never have said i was jesus. please forgive me 4 any offending remarks ,but i do enjoy talking with u.sincerely. Billy Bob

I Respond To Billy Bob's Frustration

2006-07-06T02:06:00.000-04:00

all that double talk about christ being the messiah,now u don't believe the bible
You remind me of this story I read where there was a world when everything was square and then the people saw something circular and they couldn't grasp it because all they knew was squares. All you know is Christianity. That's all you've been exposed to and that's all you care to be exposed to. Well I've studied all world religions and though I don't believe all of them, I respect it and I respect the right of people to choose their religion, as it's a personal choice. Islam teaches this thing called free will ,which means we're responsible for our own decisions. If someone asks about Islam, I tell them but I don't go around spouting ignorance like my religion is better than yours and you're doomed if you don't believe this or that. No, I don't believe in the Bible being the word of God because it was written by man. The contradictions and errors in it make that clear. God is infallible and He doesn't make mistakes. The Quran does say that Jesus is the Messiah and that's why I believe it.

What do indians ,japanese,etc.have to with what that boy did in iraq
Nothing, but you said I made a racist statement and I told you why I made that statement.

Your awful busy refuting the bible and not real steady on that koran
Which part of the Quran am I not steady on? I've read the entire Quran as well as the entire Bible? Can you say that? Can you say you've read BOTH books in their entirety? I'm not saying that to brag, I'm saying it so you know that when I make statements about Christianity it's because I've read the book! Most people who say retarded things about Islam have never even held a Quran.

Since u know what color i am,why r u hiding yours.
I'm not hiding anything. All you had to do was ask. I'm Multiracial.

rejection of christ is the only thing that condemns a man
When did I reject Christ? I have nothing but love and respect for Jesus (pbuh). As a matter of fact someone can't be Muslim unless they believe in Jesus. Listen I told you before my entire family is Christian. I have a crazy fundamentalist Uncle who you sound a lot like. I love him with all my heart but he says the exact same nonsense as you do. He thinks I'm doomed if I don't believe Jesus is God or His son or whatever. The difference between you and him is that he doesn't believe all the negative propaganda about Islam because he knows I wouldn't follow a religion that believed all the crap people think it does. You can think whatever you want about what you need to be "saved." As long as you don't believe the lies that are spread about Islam, I'll be fine. So, what problems do you have with Islam? Let me know so we can clear this up because whatever negative you view you have, I can guarantee it's not true.

Billy Bob Gets Frustrated

2006-07-06T02:01:00.000-04:00

Billy Bob: All i gotta say is,the bible is the word of God . see i did read u.all that double talk about christ being the messiah,now u don't believe the bible. Believe on the lord jesus christ and thou shalt be saved and thy house.my friend. What do indians ,japanese,etc.have to with what that boy did in iraq.Your awful busy refuting the bible and not real steady on that koran.hummm.thats messed all up my friend. if ur right,i have list nothing.but if im right u have lost ur soul,according to gods word. Since u know what color i am,why r u hiding yours. You have made no menyion of it at all. don't say color is not important,u made it that way with ur comment or post today.i am concerned with ur soul,and ur character,not ur skin color.I do pray for you my friend,because the bible says that rejection of christ is the only thing that condemns a man.And you reject his word. we do live in uncertain times for sure.Hatred is murder according to Jesus.WE have all sinned and come short of the glory of god.we are saved by grace thru faith,not of works,lest any man boast. merely knowing the word,or jesus is not enough.demons tremble at the mention of jesus name. you must believe with all your heart that jesus died for your sins,rose from the grave.you only have to ask him,believing and he will be lord over your life.believe in a living god. Fellow, i don't know who told u all that foolishness,but thats what it is,foolishness.Truthfully it sounds like a lot of jaw jacking and not really any saying anything.On christ the solid rock i stand,all other is sinking sand.

My Response to More Idiocy

2006-07-06T02:00:00.000-04:00

Black= Me
Blue= Billy Bob

U need to go bk to what u said originally.about whites oppressing all people
I did say that and its true! What do Native Americans, Chinese, Japanese, Indians, Vietnamese, Africans, etc. etc. all have in common? They've been oppressed by people who were white, whether they were French, British, American whatever. That's not racist, it's history.

u just simply want to believe in a pagan religion,because it hates the european white caucasion race.
What?? Now you're just making nonsensical statements since Muslims come in all colors. If you'd like to talk to Muslims who are white from florida or iowa or any of those states. Let me know because I know some.

u would not accept any scripture i quated if i did it all night long
Absolutely right because the Bible is not the word of God. No one even knows who wrote many books in the New Testament. History shows that the Gospels of Matthew, Mark, Luke, John weren't even written by the original disciples. No one knows for sure who wrote Revelations (which btw I've read many many times) so no, I don't believe the Bible word for word.

,oh yes u obviously hate jews.hmmm! lets see,why are you even in my country? u like those baby killing arabs on one hand then denouce their acts on the other.
No I don't hate Jews and you should know what Jews think about Christian theology. I've had frank no holds barred discussions with Jews and they tell me how stupid they think Christian theology is. The idea that a man is God is stupid to them as it is to any logical person. YOUR country? Are you native american? Cause if you aren't then it's no more your country than it is mine.

your religion is evil
You seemed like a logical person at first. Someone who I could discuss things rationally with. All my replies to you have been rational with the appropriate proof to back up my statements. You've gone from making outrageous claims with no proof to making hysterical statements that make no sense and clearly show your bias and prejudice as well as your ignorance. You have no desire to make coherent points. You just want to spout off YOUR hatred. What you're doing is projecting. You claim to practice the peace and love that Jesus (peace be upon him) taught but deep down you're a hateful, fearful person. This is clear from your rant at the end of your email. You have nothing to say that is true or factual so you just start ranting hysterical. Unfortunately there are many like you and that is how Bush got elected. Rest assured that no matter what you or Bush or any ignorant cowards do, Islam will always be around and Allah will always be worshipped because He is the one true God, who had no son and needs no son. He is the God that makes us all pay for our own sin instead of having a scapegoat who is innocent shed his blood for us. He is the God of Adam, Abraham, Noah, Ishmael, Isaac, John the Baptist, Jesus, and Muhammad (peace be upon them all) and His name will be praised until the Day of Judgement. I never wanted you to convert to Islam or even see the good things about it. All I wanted was for you to see that the false things that you've been led to believe are NOT true but you insist on holding on to your baseless beliefs while I offer you PROOF of everything I say. Just out of curiosity how old are you?

More Idiocy

2006-07-06T01:57:00.000-04:00

Billy Bob: U need to go bk to what u said originally.about whites oppressing all people.i did not write that u did,now u deny its implication.im well aware of who abrahams chid was,both of them.u just simply want to believe in a pagan religion,because it hates the european white caucasion race.please don't back up on your origanal racist remark.I respect that if u truly believe it.u said u were a christian u need to read revelation.the words i quoted u were strait frm scripture.u would not accept any scripture i quated if i did it all night long.u are frm nyc.probably,because of ur refering to main stream as middle america. i was not refering to necesarily geography. I was talking about mostly ideology.the way most americans think.ok ,lets see. YOU attack my race,you proclaim islam,u will not accept christ as your personel savior you bash our country's president,oh yes u obviously hate jews.hmmm! lets see,why are you even in my country? u like those baby killing arabs on one hand then denouce their acts on the other.That could be confusing to some weaker person.but i read it loud and clear.You should go back and live with those people if you think they are so great.those terrorist believe just like u do. if your so peace loving a moslem,then use some common sense and quit making racist remarks about all white people. your religion is evil. And you should be glad old george is in there. if i was,u would pledge alegance to the flag,to christianity,israel the god of israel or you would go bk home.And please don't tell me u are home,cause if i hated this place as much as u i would leave.

My Response to the Rant

2006-07-06T01:37:00.000-04:00

I decided to pick pieces of Billy Bob's e-mail and respond to them and send it back to him. The quotes from him will be in blue to differentiate between my comments and his.

thats what islam does.look at what killings of innocent people at the hands of islam
Innocent people are not killed at the hands of Islam. They're killed at the hands of terrorists. It says in the Quran that to kill one innocent person, is like killing all of mankind. There are various other verses from the Quran that condemns murder that I'll share with you if you like.

not to mention jesus set all pagan religions strait when he said he was the way the truth and the life.if any man tried to get to the father without going thru him,the same was as a thief and a liar.
What Jesus (peace be upon him) meant by that is open to interpretation, as is the entire Bible. Muslims interpret that differently and it's a matter of belief not fact.

if i or anyone i know in my life have never attacked islam,then why do they bring the fight to me
You claim not to hate Islam but you make blanket statements like this. Islam does not attack you. Terrorists do. And they don't all attack Christians/Jews, they attack Americans, which includes Muslims who live in America. Muslims died in 9/11, I was two blocks away before the second plane hit. I live in NY. I could potentially die in a terrorist attack. Why would I convert to a religion if I knew it condones murder?

you should care about israel.God told abraham that those who blessed him,he would bless
Let's not forget that Abraham (peace be upon him) blessed Ishmael, his first born son and God said that he would make a great nation unto him. Ishmael is an ancestor of Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him) and the father of the Arabs, as Isaac line begat the Jews.

modern islam has adopted voilence in order to get the rest of the civilized world to do as they wish
This is untrue. Show me proof of this

Trust me on this one,the god of israel will never allow his chosen people to be overrun by pagan god worshippers or ant hitler style nation of any kind
Christianity has more pagan roots than you know and I'll gladly expand on that if you want. Islam affirms that there is ONE god only. We say that more than 20 times a day in prayers. We also acknowledge all the Judeo-Chrisitian prophets. So how are we pagans?

Bible prophecy is comoing true right in both our faces
I agree and those prophecies were also foretold in Islam

if it does not lift up the name of jesus,then it is a false,misleading religion
My entire family is Christian, including my very religious mother. I know when to live and let live. If you believe I'm in the wrong religion, pray for me. Pray that God sets me straight. All I've ever wanted to do is please my Creator. If I get a sign from him that I'm wrong, I'd gladly be Christian again, but after all I've learn and been through, I know I'm on a path that is right for me and for my worship of my Creator.

But he will fight. when he comes back,the bible says the world will wage war on him at the battle of armageddon
Actually in Islam, Jesus is the Messiah and we believe this too.

It also says,he will defend Israel
Where does the Bible say that?

i just had noticed ur attack on all white people and saw the connection with islam
I never attacked white people. That would be against the teachings of Islam. I don't hate anyone on the basis of their skin color or even religion. Living in NY, I'm surrounded by diversity and my friends represent many ethnicities and religions. Even Jews. I have friends who are orthodox Jews who study in Yeshiva in Israel. As for the Israeli-Palestinian conflict. We agree to disagree because we know the situation isn't black and white and it's far from simple. I realize we don't see eye to eye but I wish you weren't so adamant about a religion that you seem to know little about. I could've died in 9/11 but I knew a religion wasn't to blame then and I was Christian at the time. I know that people are the cause of the problems in this world, not religions. Whether it's Islam, Christianity, or Judaism.

P.S How can u possibly ask a christian about hatred,all the while thinking its ok to kill innocent jews,with bombs,strapped to children.that is insanity
If you see my blog, there's an entire entry about suicide bombing. I nor Islam thinks it's ok to kill ANYONE. I'd also like to point out that a lot more Palestinian civilians are killed than Jewish ones. There are statistics to prove that.

This entire war makes no sense. Explain to me the reasoning behind attacking Iraq. I didn't like the bombing of Afghanistan and the murder of innocent Afghanis, but I knew Osama and his cronies were hiding there. However, Iraq had nothing to do with that. Saddam wasn't responsible for 9/11. The US claim to be there liberating Iraq, but the truth is more Iraqis are dying and more women are being raped than when Saddam was in charge. They only made the situation worse for the Iraqis. As for Middle America, you fear Islam because you don't know about this. This fear then leads to hate. Ignorant people shun and fear the unfamiliar and that's Middle America in a nutshell. You talk about hatred of whites? Middle America hates everyone who ISNT white.

Billy Bob Rants

2006-07-06T01:36:00.000-04:00

Billy Bob: sweetie,i do not hate mulims,but don't mistake my kindness 4 weakness.thats what islam does.look at what killings of innocent people at the hands of islam.not to mention jesus set all pagan religions strait when he said he was the way the truth and the life.if any man tried to get to the father without going thru him,the same was as a thief and a liar.Pretty strong words.don't you think?that means islam to. Don't blame bush.he is not as strongly against radical islam as most mainstream americans are.you get out of the inner cities and travel real america,and you will see what we have been since the founding fathers.if i or anyone i know in my life have never attacked islam,then why do they bring the fight to me.you should care about israel.God told abraham that those who blessed him,he would bless,and those that cursed israel he would curse.i am not a jew. but my lord and savior was. that hatred of jews and christ,is what is bragged about by those u alighn yourself with.it looks like modern islam has adopted voilence in order to get the rest of the civilized world to do as they wish. Trust me on this one,the god of israel will never allow his chosen people to be overrun by pagan god worshippers or ant hitler style nation of any kind. Bible prophecy is comoing true right in both our faces. don't be caught by the lord on the wrong side.he loves us all,that was proven on calvary,and his resurection. i will look at your page,because i don't hate u or islam. I just know that there is know redeeming value in any false religon. i don't care what name they put on it. if it does not lift up the name of jesus,then it is a false,misleading religion. i did not say that. Gods word said that. god bless u,i still bet u are a nice person. remember in christ we all can be brothers,but only in him.u said it yourself. What would jesus do. he did not preach hate or fighting.But he will fight. when he comes back,the bible says the world will wage war on him at the battle of armageddon.It also says,he will defend Israel. He will use the united states or anyone if he has to.thats not my plan ,it's his.read the bible again. sweetie, i would be on christ side even if there were no united states of america.Millions and millions of american christians feel as i do.the god of israel,never preached mixing with pagan gods.he did not say hate,he said from such turn away.be ye separate he said.i respect u,and love u as christ loves u. but i detest that religion.please accept my apoligy if i have insulted u personaly. i just had noticed ur attack on all white people and saw the connection with islam.please write as a friend even if we don't see eye to eye.sincerely (billy bob.) P.S How can u possibly ask a christian about hatred,all the while thinking its ok to kill innocent jews,with bombs,strapped to children.that is insanity.i think islam has grossly underestimated the resolve and convictions of the american people.Much as the hitlers,mousilini's and tojos of world war 2 did.we never expect our enemies to like us when we fight back,thats because we will win.George Bush knows he better win this because the silent majority of americans would kick him out if he did not.the last election showed all liberals in this country what happens when christian america wakes up and goes to vote. even if they did not ,god thru christ shall prevail.bless u til next time.

Billy Bob and Me

2006-07-06T01:34:00.000-04:00

Me: Actually there are such things as former Christians. I've read the entire Bible and up until 3 years ago I used to go to church every week. Until I realized that I was wrong and what I believed was not based on what Christianity is. It's a very complicated story how I came to that conclusion, but suffice it to say I did a lot a prayer and I believe that God, the creator and sustainer of mankind guided me to this path.

That said. Islam is not a religion of hatred. Show me evidence of this. You said you like to hear the other side. Well if you do go to this site My Islam . That's my blog. Go the archives on the side. It addresses things like suicide bombing and violence and popular misconceptions that Americans have about Islam. Believe me Billy Bob, I already know that my religion isn't welcomed here. The truth is rarely ever welcomed when it disrupts the status quo. You and Bush and millions of others consider Islam to be an enemy of the US. I don't know why but this is the case. Those terrorists that were responsible for 9/11 will be in hell with the soldiers who are killing innocent Iraqis.

Considering that Israel is responsible for the murders of innocent Palestinians and the stealing of their land, I really don't care what they think. Ask yourself Billy Bob, even if Islam is wrong, would Jesus your lord and savior agree with your hatred of ALL Muslims? Would he like the fact that innocent women are being raped in Iraq and their families murdered? Regardless of your religion, murder is murder, rape is rape, and injustice is injustice. This war is nothing but injustice and oppression as Iraq as nothing to do with 9/11. What do you think Jesus would think about this war? If I remember correctly he was nonviolent.

How It All Started

2006-07-06T01:30:00.000-04:00

Billy Bob*: JESUS SAID,i am the way the truth and the life. ur almighty allah,is just an excuse to hate white people. shame on u all blacks,nor all whites,fit in any one catogory.

Me: well as a former Christian, I know exactly what Jesus said. Also, I do not hate whites or anyone on the basis of their skin color. I simply stated a fact. I bet you think Jesus was white too haha.

Billy Bob*: know there is know such thing as former christians.#2 you stated ur made up in ur mind facts.#3 i don't care if jesus was green,i only care that he's my saviour and the king of kings and lord of lords. Want a good fact.try this one.It is very well known that most of the people of color in this nation that decide 2 embrace Islam,do it because it hates jews,whites and america. shame. know this,ur religion is not welcome in our country and the sooner u realize that fact the better.i come from a long line of people who gave their lives for our judeo,christian life.and i to as many millions will continue to do so.If our nation should call.don't hide ur hatred behind ur religion. the bible says,be sure,ur sins will find u out. i consider islam to be an enemy to my nation.just as israel does.sorry but thats what i feel .god bless and rethink ur religion and call on the one and only son of god.Jesus christ.thanks 4 writing its ok i like to hear the other side.im not angry.sincerely.billy bob*

*name has been changed

Exchanges with a Born Again Christian

2006-07-06T01:13:00.000-04:00

I recently read on AOL news about a soldier, Steven Green, who raped and murdered a 14 yr old Iraqi girl and also murdered her family which included young children and her mother. As a human being, I was outraged by this nonsense because it seems like every day something like this happens in Iraq with the supposed liberators victimizing the Iraqi people. Nonetheless someone posted a comment on the news message board that was something along the lines of: "This typical of a white man. White people constantly victimize people of other races and get away with it." Someone else posted a response which was basically a racist comment against black people because they thought the original poster was black. So then I posted and said that the original poster is not necessarily black because every single race on the face of this Earth has been oppressed by White people in one form or another whether it be the French, English, Dutch whatever.

I honestly don't care if anyone gets offended by that because it's the truth. Yes other races oppress and victimize, but the fact remains that every race has been oppressed by whites whether it be through colonialism, slavery, indentured servitude or what have you. A few hours later I received an email that said "JESUS SAID,i am the way the truth and the life. ur almighty allah,is just an excuse to hate white people. shame on u all blacks,nor all whites,fit in any one catogory." That's verbatim.

I started an exchange with this person hoping to enlighten him but all I saw was how dangerous hatred combined with ignorance can be. We in NY all wondered how Bush got re-elected and why there's even a war with Iraq. Well it's because of people like Billy Bob (Not his real name). These people live in Middle America or the South and they believe whatever the media has to tell them. They judge and make condemnations against Islam while most of them have never even seen a Muslim in real life. Well I'm going to post all of the e-mail exchanges I've had with Billy Bob. This stuff is not edited or made up. I'm going to post his e-mails and my responses. Enjoy

My Neighbor's Dog

2006-06-30T21:24:00.000-04:00

Wow two posts in one night. When's the last time that happened? My neighbors recently got this cute dog because their other dog died. From a window on the second floor of my house you can see the side of their house which is where the dog's house is. Today I looked out the window and started whistling and the dog couldn't figure out where the sound was coming from. It was hilarious lol. He was looking all around him for like 5 minutes. Then he finally looked up and saw me and started growling. I wanted him to like me so I threw pieces of halal bacon out the window for him. It worked cause after he ate it he started wagging his tail and he stopped growling at me. Now everytime I stick my head out the window and whistle, he wags his tail. I'm like Pavlov. My question is, is it ok to give bacon to dogs? I used to feed the neighbors other dog before it died. Geez I hope that's not what killed it. I'll just give him a little bit so he won't get sick. Today I only gave him 1/4 of the strip of bacon. I wish I could have a dog :o/

Are There Rats in Your Favorite Restaurants?

2006-06-30T20:54:00.000-04:00

I stumbled across this website a few days ago that gives you the results of food inspections from NYC restaurants. I was absolutely disgusted by what I read. I wouldn't say I'm a germophobe and certain violations I'm willing to overlook, but one thing I can't ignore is the presence of rats or other vermin in a restaurant I eat from. While I haven't gotten sick from eating out, alhamdulilah, I'm still grossed out. I will never eat anything from another Dunkin Donuts. No more bagels, donuts, or cookies. It seems that every Dunkin Donuts near me has rats. I'm also never eating from Tangra Masala or Bahar until I see results from another inspection. Those two restaurants were among my favorites but rats are a deal breaker. I can never eat from there again without thinking about the rats. On the bright side Tangra Wok, which is a Tangra Masala ripoff basically, got a positive review so I guess I'll be going there from now on.

Most of the halal places I frequent had minor violations, but only the two that I named above had evidence of rodents. I encourage you all to check this website out before you eat out again. http://167.153.150.32/RI/web/index.do?method=goldenAppleList Maybe you're better off not knowing. I mean this information didn't hurt me until I knew it. It's the old Matrix question. Are better off knowing or not? I'm glad I checked it though.

Free Palestine

2006-06-27T23:46:00.000-04:00

It's been a while since I posted. I know I'm totally inconsistent when it comes to posting, but it takes a lot for me to actually sit down and gather my thoughts and then write it up. I get so easily distracted. Unless I really have something to say, I can't make a post. Sometimes I want to write posts but just not bad enough to actually do it. Story of my life. I have to decide to myself if I really wanna do something before I actually put the effort into doing it. Well I was inspired by this list that my brother sent me regarding Israel/Palestine, which I'll post following my little spiel. Those of you who know me pretty much already know how I feel about the situation in Palestine. It angers me and it frustrates me to say the least. Most of the charity I contribute goes to that cause. I just can't understand how in this modern world such oppression goes on. Unfortunately the powers that be don't think helping people is worthwhile unless it benefits them in some way. People in Palestine and Darfur and Rwanda can't exactly do much for the US.

I don't condone suicide bombings and neither does Islam, but at some point you have to wonder what makes people so desperate that they'd go blow themselves up. I think it's the hopelessness of the whole situation. These people are in a situation where they're being victimized and no one's trying to help and they feel like there's nothing they can do about it but take out as many Israelis as possible. Again, I do NOT agree with that. As a Muslim, I don't think innocent people should die for the mistakes of the Israeli government. However, I can say that because I live in the US and I have a nice comfortable house that no one is bulldozing so that they can move in on the land that I've been on for years. I can say trust in Allah, He will take care of everything because I'm not in their position. If I were living in Palestine I don't know if I could just pray and have patience. InshAllah next summer if all goes according to plan, I hope to travel to Palestine with my brother and volunteer with the Red Crescent. Those of us who are in positions to help our Muslim brothers and sisters around the world who are suffering from oppression, famine, diseases, and other tragedies should definitely do so. I don't expect everyone to go abroad, but do what you can. Without further ado here's that list:

1. Did you know that non-Jewish Israelis cannot buy or lease land in Israel? A Jew from any country in the world is guaranteed citizenship in Israel, while the Palestinians who have been there for centuries are oppressed and persecuted.

2. Did you know that instead of sewing an insignia on clothing to distinguish race (like the Germans did to the Jews before WW2), Palestinian license plates in Israel are color coded to distinguish Jews from non-Jews?

3. Did you know that East Jerusalem, the West Bank, Gaza, and the Golan Heights are all considered by the entire world community, including the United States and the United Nations, to be occupied territory and NOT part of the State of Israel?

4. Did you know that Israel allots 85% of the water resources for Jews, and the remaining 15% is divided among all Palestinians in the territories? For example in Hebron, 85% of the water is set aside for about 400 Jewish settlers, while the remaining 15% is distributed among Hebron's 120, 000 Palestinians?

5. Did you know that the United States awards Israel $5 billion in aid each year from American tax dollars?

6. Did you know that US aid to Israel ($3.0 billion annually) exceeds the aid the US grants to the entire African continent? This aid is used both to buy American weaponry and to buy arms made in Israel.

7. Did you know that Israel is awaiting an additional $4 billion worth of American military hardware, including new F-16s and Apache and Blackhawk helicopters. As Israel's main ally and supporter internationally, the United States is committed to maintaining the Jewish state's "qualitative edge" in weapons over its neighbors.

8. Did you know that the U.S. administration has notified Congress on numerous occasions that Israel has violated the rules on how US-supplied weapons are used? (In 1978, 1979 and 1982 during fighting in Lebanon, and once after Israel's bombing of an Iraqi nuclear reactor in 1981.)

9. Did you know that Israel is the only country in the Middle East that refuses to sign the nuclear non-proliferation treaty and bars international inspections from its sites?

10. Did you know that high-ranking military officers in the Israeli Defense Forces have admitted publicly that unarmed prisoners of war have been summarily executed by the Israeli forces?

11. Did you know that Israel blew up an American diplomatic facility in Egypt and attacked a US warship in international waters (the USS Liberty), killing 33 and wounding 177 American sailors and the US did nothing about it?

12. Did you know that Israel stands in defiance of 69 United Nations Security Council Resolutions?

13. Did you know that Israel is explicitly dedicated to the policy of maintaining a distinct Jewish character?

14. Did you know that Israel's former Prime Minister, Ariel Sharon, was found by an Israeli court to be "personally and directly responsible" for the Sabra and Shatilla massacre in Lebanon where more than a thousand innocent Palestinian men, women, and children were axed to death or lined up and shot in cold blood?

15. Did you know that on May 20, 1990, a group of unarmed Palestinian laborers were lined up and murdered by an Israeli solider as they sat waiting for transportation back to Gaza? The terrified laborers who gathered in an area of southern Israel known as Rishon Lezion (known to Palestinians by its Arabic name Oyon Qara) handed their ID cards to the Israeli soldier. The soldiers ordered the distressed laborers to kneel down and face the ground and unexpectedly showered them with a barrage of bullets, killing seven and wounding many others. Needless to say, the soldier was not charged with any crime.

16. Did you know that until as recently as 1988, Israelis were permitted to run "Jews Only" job ads?

17. Did you know that the Israeli Foreign Ministry pays six US public relations firms to promote a "positive image" of Israel to the American public?

18. Did you know that Sharon's coalition government includes a party--Molodet--which advocates ethnic cleansing by openly calling for the forced expulsion of all Palestinians from the occupied territories?

19. Did you know that recently-declassified documents indicate that David Ben-Gurion approved of the forced expulsion of Arabs from all Palestininan territory in 1948?

20. Did you know that the former chief rabbi of Israel, Rabbi Ovadia Yossef, who is also a founder and spiritual leader of the religious Shas party (Israel's third largest political party) openly advocates a 'Final Solution' to annihilate the Palestinians? Speaking at the widely broadcast sermon marking the last Passover, he declared of the Palestinians: "The Lord shall return their deeds on their own heads, waste their seed and exterminate them, devastate them and vanish them from this world. It is forbidden to be merciful to them. You must send missiles to them and annihilate them. They are evil and damnable."

21. Did you know that Palestinian refugees make up the largest portion of the refugee population in the world?

22. Did you know that Palestinian Christians are considered the "living stones" of Christianity because they are the direct descendants of the disciples of Jesus Christ? And the Palestinian Christians stand united with their Muslim brethren in the struggle against the Israeli occupation.

23. Did you know that despite a ban on torture by Israel's High Court of Justice, torture has continued unabated by Shin Bet interrogators on Palestinian prisoners?

24. Did you know that despite every Israeli attempt to disrupt Palestinian education, Palestinians have the highest ratio of PhDs per capita in the world?

25. Did you know that the right of self-determination is guaranteed to every human being under the Universal Declaration of Human Rights [December, 1948], yet Palestinians were/are expected to negotiate for this right under the Oslo Accords?

26. Did you know that despite what is widely perpetuated and written in the history books that the Arabs attacked Israel in the 1967 war, it was Israel who attacked the Arab countries first, capturing Jerusalem and the West Bank, and called the attack a pre-emptive strike?

27. Did you know that, as an occupying power, Israel has a particular responsibility under the Geneva Conventions to protect Palestinian civilians?

28. Did you know that, despite Ariel Sharon's public call for a unilateral ceasefire, Israeli soldiers have not stopped shooting, killing or bulldozing Palestinian homes? The most recent example of this is the murder of three innocent women who were shot by an Israeli tank as they sat in their tent!

29. Did you know that the Zionists have been trying to destroy Masjid al-Aqsa and the Dome of the Rock for the last 50 years by digging underground tunnels beneath the sites to weaken its foundation causing it to collapse?

30) Nelson Mandela called the Israeli government an apartheid regime, just like South Africa used to be.

The Omen

2006-06-06T21:31:00.000-04:00

I went to the movies to see the Omen today. It's rare that I go see a movie on opening day, but I really loved the original Omen and the Omen IV, and I'm a big fan of horror movies, so I went with my brother. It wasn't bad, but if you saw the original you knew what was gonna happen a lot of the times. The movie didn't really diverge from the original that much except for a few added scenes put in just to scare the hell out of the audience. It worked lol. Everyone in the theater was screaming. Including yours truly :o) I scare easily. The idea of the Anti-Christ is really interesting. I understand the Islamic concept of Dajjal, but I'm not too clear on the Mahdi. Is the Mahdi and Isa (as) the same? I' m gonna look this up, but can someone explain it to me?

When I went to see the Omen I saw the trailer for the Borat movie. It looks like it's going to be hilarious. I'm looking forward to it especially since it's likely that there aren't going to be any new Ali G. episodes. Apparently he's gotten too big and people recognize him now so he can't pull off his act anymore. The Ali G. movie was pretty funny so hopefully the Borat one will be too. Maybe they'll be a Bruno movie eventually. The Ali G show was awesome. I'm trying to find the British episodes. If anyone knows where I can get them holla at me :o)

Delicious Halal Fast Food From Your Own Kitchen

2006-06-05T22:14:00.000-04:00

It looks like my quest to get big name fast food places to offer halal options isn't going anywhere fast. However, alhamdulilah, I've come across a solution. By coincidence, I heard about a new book that has fast food recipes that you can make at home. The original purpose of this book is to save money, as well as fat and calories. The author compares the nutrition information of her recipes to the actual fast food products and her recipes are far more healthy and no less tasty.

For Muslims who only eat halal, this book serves another purpose. We can make our own fast food using halal meat. This a great alternative to products from Al-Safa and other frozen halal foods and trust me it's 100% better. There are recipes for Big Macs, Wendy's Spicy Chicken Sandwich, Starbucks Mocha Frappucino (Yes I'm still boycotting them so I was overjoyed to find this recipe), and many more. All the big fast food chains are represented : McDonalds, Burger King, Wendys, KFC, Taco Bell, Popeyes :o), etc. So far I've made burgers, chicken sandwiches, chicken strips, frappucinos and they either taste exactly like the original or better. The Big Mac sauce taste exactly like the original, I swear to you. I've received so many compliments from my family, even my dad who won't eat anything unless it's Guyanese food.

You're probably wondering why I'm going so hard about this book. I'm not being paid to promote it. I'm just extremely pleased with it. I paid about $10 for it on Amazon.com and it's worth a hell of a lot more. This book has the easiest recipes I've ever encountered. ANYONE could do it. Not only that, but it doesn't take a lot of time, and most of the ingredients you probably already have in your kitchen. There are also no special tools or utensils required. A lot of the recipes can be prepared ahead and frozen, and cooked later to save time. Unfortunately I still have some frozen burgers, kebabs, and chicken patties from Al-Safa and another halal company. I'm gonna have to force myself to finish it. It's going to be so hard going back to that junk after eating freshly prepared fast food.

This book is perfect for those of you, who like myself, are too busy to cook curry and biryani lol. I haven't been cooking as much since I started working, but this book brought me back to the kitchen. To sum up, the recipes are easy and fast, they taste incredible, they are relatively low in fat and calories and the book only costs $10. Don't take my word for it. Read the glowing reviews on Amazon.com. Before I forget, the name of the book is Fast Food Fix by Devin Alexander. Get this book and you will not regret it!

Adventures in Pornland

2006-06-01T20:23:00.000-04:00

Today my brother went with me to Queens College so I could return some books. We came home to find my parents livid, my mother in particular. The reason? My brother has a porn collection on her computer and being the retard that he is, he left it on the screen when he went out with me. The fax machine and my mom's computer are in the attic, which is where my bro's room is. Every day my dad gets faxes from his job so he has to go to the attic to get them. Apparently when he was there he saw the porn on the screen. My mom is like the most prudish person know. She doesn't know stuff like what a 69 or orgy is; as a matter of fact she blushes upon hearing the word "sex." I could only imagine her reaction when my dad called her to see what was on her computer.

For some reason my dad then insisted on showing me the porn. I saw thumbnail stills and believe me that was enough! However my dad proceeded to play it :o( I dunno why he felt it was necessary for me to see the live action porn. I seriously couldn't look away fast enough. Why do people watch this crap???? It's disgusting. Every single guy I know has watched porn or still does. What's the attraction? Why would you want to see that?? Do people get some kind of vicarious pleasure from it? In my opinion it's like watching someone eating ice cream. How is it enjoyable for YOU to watch SOMEONE ELSE eat the ice cream?

This actually wasn't the first incident of porn that involved my bro. Before we got tivo I used to record shows that I wanted to see on video cassette when I didn't have time to watch them. One day I came home to watch a show that I'd recorded the night before. So I'm in my room and I put the tv on and start the tape and what do I see? One of the most graphic, disgusting things I've ever seen. I was like in shock. I couldn't figure out how porn ended up on what was supposed to be an episode of Degrassi. Then I realized that someone must've gone into my room and taken my tape out when I wasn't home. Who else would do this but my brother? When I confronted him he admitted that he was watching porn in my room. AstugfirAllah. You're not even supposed to use foul language in the same room as a Quran and he's in here watching porn.

Another time I went into his room without knocking and found him watching cartoon porn on the computer. He frantically tried to close it before I saw it but it was too late. The sad thing about it is how common it is for people to watch that garbage. Even guys I know who consider themselves to be religious have watched porn. One time at Stony Brook my roommate and her boyfriend put on Girls Gone Wild just to see my reaction. It was the dumbest dvd, yet Girls Gone Wild is top selling. I just don't get it. Someone explain to me what's so great about this smut.

Butterfly Janazah

2006-05-26T19:02:00.000-04:00

At my job, the Pre-K and Kindergarten kids are learning about caterpillars and butterflies. Each class got caterpillars and we watched as they went into chrysalids and then changed to butterflies. Speaking of which: Why did the boy throw butter out the window? Because he wanted to see a butter-fly. Haha I know it's lame. Wait til you hear my gay horse joke, but I digress. So anyway we taught the kids about the metamorphasis.

Today one of the butterflies in the kindergarten class was found dead. I dunno what happened to it. The kindergarten teacher decided to use it as an opportunity to teach the kids about death. We taught them the dua to say when someone dies and we buried the butterfly outside. I was chosen to give the eugogoly...I mean eulogy. Unfortunately, I was laughing hysterically because the whole thing was just too hilarious. We had janazah for a butterfly! I don't even like butterflies. They creep me out. I think they're gross. Them and fishes. If you look at them closely, they're ewww. Khalas.

The other day my 6 year old cousin, who I take care of, and I were discussing cereal because he wanted me to buy him Trix. I told him I hate Trix because those stupid kids were always being mean to the rabbit and why won't they give him some damn Trix already. He's been trying to get Trix since I was little. Then my cousin told me that the reason is because the kids worked hard to grow the Trix and the rabbit is always trying to steal it. He told me he read it on sillyrabbit.com. I used to feel so bad for that stupid rabbit but screw him. Those kids worked for that Trix, he can't just come and steal it. Whatever. I hope he never gets any. My brother said that the rabbit is a Jew.

Disclaimer: The views of my brother do not represent my own views. I do not endorse anti-Semitism or statements that might be interpreted as such. I'm simply stating what happened :o)

What's wrong with me?

2006-05-23T23:29:00.000-04:00

Something's seriously wrong with me. Most of you already know that. I can't focus....on anything!!!! I should've been in bed a 1/2 hour ago. I have no clue what I've been doing with my time. It seems like time fasts forward when I'm not looking because before I know it, I've wasted all my time. I'm a detriment to myself. Somebody help me. My brain went to sleep 1/2 hour ago, my body better go catch up.

Halal Popeyes dammit!

2006-05-01T20:23:00.000-04:00

For those of you who don't know, I went to Guyana for Spring Break two weeks ago. Guyana has a small percentage of Muslims (about 13 %), but since many of the butchers are Muslim, most places offer halal meat, even fast food places like Popeyes and KFC. (Just a sidenote that has nothing to do with anything Guyana is the country with the largest percentage of Bahá'ís 7 %. I found that interesting). Anyway, before I converted to Islam I LOVED Popeyes. Those of you who saw the Adam Sandler movie, Little Nicky, know that Popeyes chicken is ******* awesome!! I still eat popeyes from time to time, but my options are limited to fish, shrimp, french fries, and just about the best biscuits around. So when I went to Guyana, of course I had Popeyes and it was bangin. However, I became really irritated because I realized that in NY, I can think of 3 Popeyes off the top of my head that are in Muslim neighborhoods or neighborhoods with sizeable Muslim populations, yet none of these locations are halal. What gives?

Like I said, Guyana's fast food restaurants have halal options, as does Canada (at least 8 halal Popeyes locations! Another reason to hate Canada haha jk), France (Burger King offering halal last year got worldwide media attention), England, and of course, Muslim countries. When are fast food giants in the US going to realize that we Muslims are an untapped source of revenue? Oh sure the McDonald's in Dearborne, Michigan has halal nuggets and chicken sandwiches, but that's like nothing. My brother always makes me take him to Popeyes and it irks me no end that I can't have any. Today was the breaking point for me so I wrote a very persuasive letter (in my opinion!) to Popeyes, and I called their customer service to suggest they start offering halal options. The lady was very nice and she took my info and suggestion down and said she'd forward it to upper management. If more Muslims start following suit, I think we can make our voices heard and see very real results. Here's the number for Popeyes customer service: 1-877-767-3937. You can e-mail them at Popeyes.com. If you don't like Popeyes, you're retarded. No I'm kidding again. Seriously, if you don't like Popeyes, then contact whichever fast food joint strikes your fancy. Also sign this petition of Muslims requesting halal fast food. http://www.petitiononline.com/halal/petition.html Together we can make this happen, inshAllah. On another note, I'm boycotting Starbucks because the CEO is a zionist. Goodbye black and white mochas :o( I can no longer enjoy you because the money spent for you might end up as a bullet in some poor Palestinian kid's head.

One more pic

2006-04-26T17:07:00.000-04:00

funny pics

2006-04-25T20:37:00.000-04:00

A friend sent me these pics and I thought they were hilarious and very appropriate. Enjoy!

Misunderstanding

2006-04-23T20:39:00.000-04:00

I think there was a misunderstanding about my Snubster list. With the exception of the famous people, everyone on my lists is either a family member or a friend. I put them on the lists to either annoy them or as a joke or both. I honestly don't hate anyone or bear any ill will towards anyone. I believe that kind of negativity is detrimental to one's self and I don't take part in it. Regardless of what individuals do to me, I never hate them. I may dislike them or sometimes think they deserve the worst, but I'd never wish for bad things to happen to them or anything like that. I try to do what Rasullullah (saw) recommended, which is pray for someone that you feel negatively towards. Those of you who don't know me personally didn't realize this and that's totally understandable. To those of you who took it upon yourself to judge my level of iman because of said misunderstanding, well I really don't care what you think about me to be honest. You're entitled to your own opinions, but only Allah's opinion really matters to me and He waits until I'm dead to judge me, which is more than I can say for a lot of you out there. Alhamdulilah that Allah knows our intentions and our feelings and that He is our only judge.

Snubster.com

2006-04-12T18:59:00.000-04:00

I'm anti MySpace and Friendster and Naseeb and all those other retarded websites. Now, it's fine if you like it, it's just not my bag. I found a site for someone like me though. Yay! Snubster.com where you make a list of things or people you hate. These people can be on the "Put on Notice List" or they can be on the "Dead to Me List." If you add someone to the list and you put their email address, an e-mail will be sent to them letting them know. This list is really convenient for me cause usually when people start annoying me or they piss me off a lot, I just pretend they died and stop talking to them. Start your own list today :o) You can see my list at snubster.com/anjihad.

two blogs

2006-03-23T22:43:00.000-05:00

I'm adding another blog to this site for Islamic stuff only. This one will be for personal stuff. The posts already concerning Islam on this blog will remain here, but they will also be on the other blog. The address for the other blog is anjihadislam.blogspot.com. There will also be a link to it on the page with my profile.

Terrorism

2006-03-23T16:44:00.000-05:00

Saying that Islam promotes terrorism is like saying Catholicism promotes the molestation of little boys. Are there people calling themselves Muslim who are terrorists? Yes. Are there Catholic priests (who, according to Catholicism, are the conduit between laymen and God) who molest little boys? Most definitely! Obviously molesting little boys is a sin on so many levels and the same goes for suicide bombing. To say that Islam condones or promotes terrorism is just stupid. Here's why:

Suicide Bombing- Suicide is a sin in Islam. One's life is a gift from Allah and only He should be able to take it when the time comes. The Quran says: "O you who believe...Do not kill (or destroy) yourselves: Surely to you Allah has been Most Merciful. And if any does that in hate or injustice. Soon We shall throw him into the Fire." (4:29-30) I think the verse is pretty self explanatory.

Also, The Messenger of Allah (Allah bless him & give him peace) said: “Whoever intentionally throws himself from a mountain and kills himself, will be in the fire (of Hell) falling down into it and abiding therein eternally forever; and whoever drinks poison and kills himself with it, he will be carrying his poison in his hand and drinking it in the fire (of Hell) wherein he will abide eternally forever; and whoever kills himself with an iron weapon, will be carrying that weapon in his hand and stabbing his abdomen with it in the fire (of Hell) wherein he will abide eternally forever.” (Sahih al-Bukhari & Sahih Muslim)

That takes care of suicide. Now the bombing part: "And do not take life-- which Allah has made holy--Except for just and true cause." Quran (17:33) Another verse: "...Do not let the hatred of others make you lean towards wrong and go away from Justice." (5:8)

Verse 5:32 in the Quran also says (and I'm paraphrasing) whoever kills one man, it's as if he's killed the whole mankind and whoever saves a life, it's as if he's saved the whole mankind.

Killing innocent people, even in times of war, was forbidden by Prophet Muhammad (saw). This includes women, children, noncombatant bystanders, and even trees and crops. Nothing is to be harmed unless the person or thing is actively engaged in an assault against Muslims.

So, if suicide is a sin and killing innocent people is a sin, how is it possible that Islam promotes terrorism? I fail to see the connection and the reason for that is THERE IS NONE. InshAllah, next misconception: Oppressed women coming soon.

So called Violence in Islam

2006-03-21T22:38:00.000-05:00

Sadly the first thing that enters the mind of most non-Muslims when they hear the word "Islam" is violence or suicide bombings. Muslims try to correct this misconception but actions speak louder than words. The words of true Muslims are overshadowed by the actions of "Muslims" acting contrary to the teachings of Islam and Prophet Muhammad (saw). First of all, the word Islam means peace through submission (to the one God). Second, every Muslim is required to greet another Muslim with Assalam alaikum (Peace be upon you). We also end every prayer saying Assalam alaikum twice....no violence so far.

Prophet Muhammad (saw) for most of his life was a non violent man. When the Quran was first revealed to him and he was called to Prophethood, he had to endure violence and threats from his pagan neighbors, family, and former friends. He had garbage thrown upon him on numerous occasions, he was spat at, he had to watch those defend him suffer, and not once did he raise a hand to retaliate. Not once did he let his anger get the best of him. He endured everything nonviolently for the sake of Allah, and he encouraged the other believers to do the same.

Only when he started living in Medina did he begin to fight, after he was commanded to fight by Allah. Yes commanded to fight by God. Now I can hear some of you Christians..."Why would God command anyone to fight etc etc." " Jesus was peaceful, Muhammad is violent." I'd like to take this time to direct your attention to the Old Testament. Were there not countless battles fought because of a command from God? Joshua, Moses, Abraham (peace be upon them all), they were all involved in divinely sanctioned skirmishes. When God promised Moses the promised land, what happened to the people who were already living there? They had to be driven out. They didn't get up and leave voluntarily. Does that make Judaism a violent religion?

Islam is a practical religion. When Prophet Muhammad formed an army of Muslims, it was to defend himself against the Pagan Arabs who sought to destroy the Muslims. Were they supposed to stand there and be slaughtered? Sometimes turning the other cheek ain't so practical huh? Islam is often misquoted to show its "violent nature." One such verse is : "And slay them wherever you catch them (2.191)." There's this little thing called context. Any statement taken out of context can convey something totally different to what the original statement meant. You can quote any book or text out of context and make it seem like something else. So there are geniuses out there, who pluck random verses out of the Quran to prove how violent Islam is. You can't do that! In order to understand Quranic verses, you have to look at the circumstances of the time when that verse was revealed. What was going on? Was it war time for the Muslims? Another thing, which may seem like common sense but is often neglected is, you have to look at the verses before and after the verse you want to quote. Duh!

So, what are the verses before and after the verse I quoted? "And fight in the cause of Allah those who fight you, but do not transgress limits: For Allah does not love those who exceed their rightful limits (2:190)." That is the verse before. The verse after is "And slay them wherever you catch them, and turn them out from where they have turned you out." That second part often doesn't get quoted. That is clearly an order for the Muslims to defend themselves. That's just one simple example of how the Quran gets misquoted. There are countless others used in anti-Islam propaganda. I can go on and on, I don't want to be too longwinded so I'll end here. If you want more in dept information about this topic contact me and I'll be happy to discuss it some more. I can discuss this topic forever, but I'm not writing a book here. InshAllah tomorrow I'll post about the suicide bombings and how it has no place in Islam.

Concerning Islam

2006-03-21T22:36:00.000-05:00

Yesterday, I had to defend Islam to a woman who had no idea what Islam was really all about. She like most people judge Islam by what they hear from the media and/or the actions of misguided souls who do the wrong things in the name of Islam and Allah. Because I wear hijab and I'm a convert to Islam, I'm often called upon to defend my choice of religion. The misconceptions that people have about this beautiful religion can be frustrating, but then I think back to a time not so long ago when I too believed totally false things. I wasn't a bad person before I converted, and neither are the majority of people who criticize Islam. They're just ignorant and think that they know the truth. I believe if people try to learn about Islam with an open mind then they would come to respect it, even if they don't accept it.

I've decided to address the major things that people have issue with concerning Islam. This is not an attempt to proselytize (convert anyone). It's merely an attempt to educate. I'll divide the issues into different entries so you can go straight to the issue that you're interested in knowing about. If anything is unclear or you have questions or comments, feel free to e-mail or leave a comment. I am not an Islamic scholar and I don't claim to be one. These entries are the way I see things, and I'll do my best to support them with Quranic references and hadiths. My views may seem overly simplistic, but I think that people have a tendency to complicate things and then they end up losing focus and missing the point. InshAllah my entries will be beneficial to those reading it.

WTF is wrong with Britney Spears?

2006-02-28T22:37:00.000-05:00

Nanny...$8-$13 an hour. Baby bottle set...$30. Pictures proving you're white trash and an unfit mother...

Pakis suck

2006-02-13T18:09:00.000-05:00

I forgot to mention that Amjad is Pakistani and Mohammed is Guyanese. Sigh....Pakistani people stay wronging Guyanese people. See this is why I can't mess with Pakis.

I'm cold

2006-02-13T17:45:00.000-05:00

Rather it's cold. LOL a lot of people would agree with the title of this blog but for a different reason. But it's cold outside and in my house. I should turn up the heat. I'm recovering from a cold. I woke up really sick on Saturday. Most of my weekend was spent in bed. There were times when I couldn't even stand up or get out of bed. Alhamdulilah my family helped me out a lot. Getting me soup and whatever I needed. Even Justin brought me juice and took away the dishes. I feel a lot better today which is good cause I had to go to work. It's funny how quickly work goes by. I honestly love my job. I thought I'd never have the patience to deal with little kids on a daily basis but it's fine. A lot of kids didn't show up today because of the snow. Well actually my main class was only missing about 5. Still it was a quieter day than it usually is.

I felt so bad today. There's this little boy in my class named Mohammed and he's a bit of a trouble maker. He bothers the other kids and runs around but he listens when you scold him and overall he's a nice kid. He just can't seem to stop doing naughty things. There's this other kid in my class named Mohammed Amjad who we just call Amjad. Amjad is very quiet, he hardly says anything to anyone and he sits in his seat and doesn't run around. So anyway about 10 mins before dismissal this kid told me that Amjad's pants were wet. So I asked Amjad how his pants got wet. He told me that Mohammed poured juice on it. Now this is something that Mohammed would indeed do (he put paint on another kid's clothes just this morning) but considering that Mohammed wasn't anywhere near Amjad and he didn't have any juice, it seemed suspicious. So anyway I asked Mohammed if he did it and he said no, Amjad is lying. So I asked Amjad if he wet his pants and he said no Mohammed did it. I told him its very wrong to tell lies about someone and get them in trouble and I asked him again if Mohammed did it and he said yes. At this point, another kid said he saw Mohammed do it. So of course I believe Amjad and the other kid. I told the teacher I work with and she did the same line of questioning I did and she believed Amjad too. Anyway we're getting at Mohammed and the teacher, sister Amira decides to sniff Amjad's pants and she says it smells like urine. Turns out the quiet kid was lying. I felt so bad for Mohammed lol. I told him I was sorry that I didn't believe him. It was actually pretty smart of Amjad to accuse Mohammed because it really is something Mohamed would have done. Anyway I gotta keep a closer eye on these children.

I wish this job was something I could do permanently. I really think it's worthwhile. Overall I think these kids act better than public school kids because Muslim parents are more likely to instill values in their kids. However, if I don't wanna live a life of poverty then I'll have to move to public school eventually. Lord knows I don't wanna be rich, who the hell can be rich on a teacher's salary. I do want to live comfortably, however becuase I'm used to a certain lifestyle. The starting salary at the school I work at is about 1/2 the amount of an NYC public school teacher's salary. In LI, the teachers make even more. Oh well, we'll see what happens. If any of you lot out there have children, send them to Al-Ihsan Academy, I'll make sure they get a good education and even if you don't have kids you can donate money to us at Ihsanacademy.org. Remember charity is a pillar of Islam lol.

My job rules!

2006-02-08T15:57:00.000-05:00

I started my job and I have to say I'm pleasantly surprised. The sisters I work with are so sweet mashAllah and the kids are amazing. I work with Pre-Kindergarten and Kindergarten and the kids are sooo cute mashAllah. They have a lot of energy but they're good kids for the most part. They have a uniform and the girls uniform includes a hijab and sometimes the boys wear kufis. It is the most adorable thing seeing them dressed like that. I hug them all the time lol. There's one little boy named Mikey. Well actually his name is Abdullah lol and he can't sit still and he's always running around but he's so sweet and affectionate. He told me today that he wanted to come home with me. I think he's Egyptian but he looks white. He has brown hair and green eyes and the cutest mischievous smile. Actually the "bad" kids are the really really cute ones lol. I guess it's because they're so cute that their parents spoil them. I enjoy being in an Islamic environment and the day passes so quickly. The kids all say salam to me when I come in and they read namaz and make dua. At first I thought I'd never send my kids to an Islamic schoold but I think I might for the first few years. In addition to regular academics, the kids have Islamic studies and Arabic. They are also taught to make dua before they eat etc. I think it's a good thing for kids to be in that kind of environment when they're so young.

I'll be updating my blog even more sporadically now because I'm so busy these days with work and school. I went from an idle existence to the complete opposite. Tuesdays are the worst because after work I have two classes and I don't get home until 9 pm. I still don't even know how I'm gonna get all my assignments done and stuff. Last semester I didn't have a job but I was still doing all my assignments at the last minute anyway. I figured since the opportunity for this job presented itself then I might as well do something constructive during the day (much to the chagrin of my family because now I can't cook every day). Justin told me I should, and I quote, "resign" from my job because I won't be able to cook for him. I don't even know where he learned that word. He told me the other day that he'd be with me "momentarily." So anyway inshAllah I'll continue to enjoy my job and the kids and also get my school work done. I think the fact that I know I don't have time to waste helps me to do my work whenever I have any free time. So that prevents me from scrambling to get everything done at the last minue.

Health duas

2006-02-02T21:49:00.000-05:00

Yesterday I was bored so I cut off some of my hair. It was actually quite liberating. I mean it doesn't matter cause only my family sees it anyway. It's kinda uneven but for the most part it looks alright lol. InshAllah it'll grow back . I went for a long time without cutting my hair so it got pretty long and yesterday I was just compelled to cut it. When I was younger I used to cut off my Barbie's hair. All my Barbies had crew cuts and looked liek GI Jane or worse. Ha ha it was funny. I thought they looked conceited and insolent, but they didn't after I got through with them :o)

Ok here are a couple of duas that have to do with health:

For the relief of pain: Wa bilhaqqi anzalnahu wa bil haqqi nazala wama arsalnaka illa mubas-shiranw wa nazira

For the relief of a stomach ache: Recite the following words three times over water and drink it ( I can testify that this one totally works): La feeha ghaulun walahum anha yunafoon

For relief of fever: Qulna ya naru bardanw wa salaman 'ala Ibrahima.

And that's it for now. I'd like to leave you with this sentiment:

Lord, the night is gone. The dawn has lighted the sky. How I long to know if You accepted or rejected my prayers. Comfort me, Lord, for only you can comfort this state of mine. You gave me life and nurtured me; Yours is all the praise. If You would ever drive me away from Your door, I would never abandon it for the sake of Your love, which I carry in my heart. -Rabi'a, "Rabi'a the Mystic"

I thought that was beautiful and I had to share it.

Common sense and Islam

2006-02-01T09:04:00.000-05:00

This brief post is in response to an anonymous comment which stated that listerine contains alcohol and thus, is haram:

Imam Abu Hanifa & Imam Abu Yusuf (Allah have mercy on them both) from the Hanafi school are of the view that it will be permissible to consume such alcohol for medication purposes or to gain energy (and not for pleasure and enjoyment) as long as it does not intoxicate. Sayyiduna Abu Huraira (RadiAllahu anhu) narrates that the Messenger of Allah (sallahu alayhi wa salam) said: “Khamr (wine) is from these two trees, dates and grapes”. (Sahih Muslim) Also, the Messenger of Allah (saw) is reported to have said: “Khamr (derived from grapes, dates and barley) is in itself unlawful (and impure), and also all the other beverages that reach the level of intoxication”.

Furthermore, I'd like to quote an esteemed scholar from Sunnipath.com: It would be permitted to use the various types of perfumes, deodorants and creams that contain alcohol due to the fact that the alcohol contained in them is from other than grapes, dates and barley or it is a synthetic alcohol (formulated from chemical substances) and not the khamr (wine) that is absolutely impermissible and filthy.

I'd like to thank the brother who commented, but I'd like to point out that while Islam does provide a guide for life, a certain amount of common sense has to be used as Islam is not meant to be a burden. There are two different types of alcohol. The one that people drink and become intoxicated from and the alcohol that is in a great many products, especially medicine, lotions etc. Avoiding the second type of alcohol is this day and age is a feat. Secondly, one does not become intoxicated from taking a medicine or using mouthwash. When people get caught up in following the rules staunchly and they ignore circumstances, that's when trouble starts. Now I'm not saying adapt all the rules of Islam to your life and time. I'm just saying, use common sense. In the time of Prophet Isa (alayhi salam), the religious order of the Pharisees used to follow the rules to the letter. For example if someone fell into a well on the sabbath, they considered it unlawful to help him out because it would break the Sabbath. They verbally attacked Prophet Isa (as) for healing the sick and the dying on the Sabbath. To them it was better to let someone die than break the Sabbath.

My point is that Islam is not just a set of rules to follow and Allah a cruel dictator. Allah is the Beneficent and the Merciful. I don't claim to know what Allah would do, but somehow I doubt that if you take medicine for some relief, you're going to hell.

canker sores

2006-01-31T10:38:00.000-05:00

Yesterday I went to class. My teacher's like 100 years old. I'm not even joking. He's senile, he gets confused and doesn't know what's going on, he doesn't understand what we're saying to him. God forbid, but he were to die during this semester I wouldn't be surprised. He's that old. This ought to be an interesting semester.

After I got home my mom told me that the principal of the islamic school had called. So I called him back and he told me I can come in for an interview right away. The school is actually in South Ozone Park, about 10 minutes from me, which makes things a hell of a lot easier than if it were in Astoria. The principal and member of the school board who interviewed me were impressed by my resume and the interview went well alhamdulilah. They wanted someone to start right away, but I couldn't start full time because I take care of Justin and I have to take him to and from school. They told me that they can probably use me for a subbing position. MashAllah they were very nice and it's actually predominantly Guyanese. So we'll have to see what happens with that.

On Sunday Justin went out with my parents and when he got back he brought me a lavender colored Tweety bird. For those of you who don't know, lavender is my favorite color to the point of fanaticism. I thought it was so sweet of him to bring me something. It was so weird that it was lavender since Tweety is usually yellow. It's a very rewarding experience to care for a child. I'm enjoying it because this may be the closest I get to raising one unless if I adopted. Unfortunately I don't really see marriage in my future, but whatever Allah wills. The other day Justin had to write an essay about people he looked up to and my mom was helping him. I overheard him saying that he looks up to me because I take care of him and I take him to school and I cook for him. I didn't even think he noticed the stuff that I do for him, but in his own little way he appreciates it. I didn't think it was possible for me to love him more but after that comment I think I do. Lately he's been spending a lot of time in my room with me. He's become my little shadow lol. I would've really liked to have some of my own.

Anyway I promised cures, so here's my patented canker sore cure. Canker sores are small, but they are excruciating. So if you're unfortunate enough to have one, look no further for help:

Do this when you wake up and before bed.
1. Brush with a toothpaste that does not contain sodium laurel sulfate in its inactive ingredients. Rembrandt canker sore is great.
2. Apply a fresh piece of garlic to the canker sore making sure it covers the sore. Do that for about 10 mins.
3. Gargle with Listerine. Not only does this take away the garlic taste, but it kills the germs in your mouth that might irritate the sore and it numbs it a little.
4. Finally, apply Colgate Orabase Soothe and Seal, which forms a protective layer in your mouth and immediately eliminates the pain. This little thing is a bit expensive, but worth every penny if you're in a lot of pain. Anbesol relieves the pain, but only temporarily, and if any thing touches the sore it hurts. This is not the case with Orabase. I sound like a commercial for it, but it really works.

Cure for hiccups

2006-01-30T00:11:00.000-05:00

Ok so I consider myself to be a bit of a healer. Like most Guyanese people, I avoid doctors except for annual physicals and in dire circumstances. I believe anything else can be cured with a bit of research and trial and error and herbs. In the days to come inshAllah I'll be posting some cures for stuff or tips. These are just suggestions and if you die or get seriously injured or something, I'm not legally responsible. So yeah there's my disclaimer so you guys can't sue me. Obviously if you have like pneumonia or something, you should see a doctor but for other things like the common cold or canker sores, feel free to e-mail me and I'll see what I can do for you.

In these modern times of science, many people would scoff at the idea of using a dua to cure something, but I know from experience that it works. Invest in a little pocket size book of duas for various things. It really helps. Dua should be the first thing you do if youre ill because only Allah can make you better if it's His will.

Anyway without further ado here's the cure for hiccups and this is a tried and true method by yours truly. If it doesn't work then you're prolly just retarded. LOL omg no I'm joking. If it doesn't work for you e-mail me and inshAllah we'll work something out because people's bodies respond in different ways. I've tried drinking a lot of water, eating a spoonful of sugar, breathing into a paper bag, none of it helped. Actually if you can get someone to scare you (ie jump out from behind a door when you're not expecting it), that works pretty well too. The best thing that worked for me is to raise both arms in the air and inhale slowly and exhale slowly, inshAllah after taking a few slow breaths your hiccups will be gone. More tips and cures to come later inshAllah.

Why am I not sleeping?

2006-01-29T00:27:00.000-05:00

I do this every night. I look at the clock and know I should go to sleep, but I find something, anything, to do instead of going to bed. I dunno why I do this. I know I should sleep earlier; I just can't help myself. I never do the things I should, the things that are best for me :o( I'm a loser. K that's enough self deprecation for one night.

Yesterday I tried sushi for the first time. It was actually by accident because I was under the incorrect assumption that sushi was just raw fish. The raw fish is actually sashimi, which people generally confuse with sushi. I learned all this at wikipedia.com. I've been going there a lot lately. I guess it's because I'm generally inquisitive, but I digress. So I got food from this Asian fusion place and it said spicy shrimp roll and I thought it was the shrimp eggroll. Well it wasn't but it was really good and I'll definitely be trying sushi again (as long as it's cooked!) I also tried wasabi and I have to say that it's one of the weirdest sensations I've ever experienced. It was unlike anything else. I can't even describe it. This is because wasabi burns the sinuses, as opposed to chilis which burn the tongue. Also did you know that in most Japanese restaurants the wasabi served is actually imitation wasabi? Real wasabi is very expensive and when it's powdered to make wasabi paste, it loses its flavor. (Yes wikipedia again)

I applied for a job today. It's for teaching first grade at an Islamic school in Astoria. I have mixed feelings about it but inshAllah whatever is best will happen. If I get the job, then I won't have to be hitting my parents up for money anymore. They don't mind giving me money and as a matter of fact, they prefer that I don't work. I just feel bad sometimes asking them for money and having them pay for my credit cards. Because both my parents work and I go to school in the evenings, I take care of the domestic stuff like cooking and taking care of my cousin. If I get this job, then I dunno what will happen. My mom already asked me who'll cook if I'm hired. Whatever Allah wills.

This morning I took my car to get service at Strauss. It was really early in the morning. I was like the first person there. So there was this security guard standing at the door when I walked in and I said Good morning. It just seemed weird just walking in there and not saying anything. So he was kinda taken aback because I guess a lot of people don't say good morning. That's true actually. People never say really say good morning anymore, not to strangers anyway. When I went into the store the man was like not smiling or anything but when I was leaving he smiled at me and I said have a nice day. That's another thing people don't do. When you take a second to exchange pleasantries with someone, especially a stranger, it really makes a difference. Lord knows I'm not the most friendly person in the world. I mean I'm definitely responsive to friendliness but rarely do I initiate it. Like most New Yorkers, I just can't be bothered. Well not anymore. I'm gonna make an effort to be kinder. It really makes Islam look good too. Like if Muslims just started being nice and stuff. Like the whole paying it forward thing is kinda corny, but it would make the world a better place if everyone participated. More on this later cause I hate reading long posts and I'm afraid of losing your attention. Besides I think I'll stop procrastinating and go to sleep. Really, who the hell procrastinates to sleep?? Me :o(

I'm not blonde under my hijab

2006-01-26T23:03:00.000-05:00

Ya Allah! Reading some of my past posts, I realize how ditzy I sound. I'll be the first to admit, I have my ditzy moments and I have been known to say really stupid things, but that's not me entirely. I guess that's the thing about me. There are so many facets to my personality that I just adapt to whatever situation I'm in and who I'm around. I'm sure a lot of people would doubt that I actually have profound thoughts and conversations, but when the time calls for it, I can be serious. Bring up the Israeli-Palestian conflict and I no longer sound like an airhead, and that's because I'm not. Talk to me about sonnets or Chaucer and I'll surprise you. Even my family is surprised sometimes. I know a little bit of everything, but I don't know a lot about one thing (except maybe English grammar). Sometimes I cringe at some of the things I read that I've written. Alhamdulilah I can say I've change a lot from that first post, a little over a year ago. I've learned a lot more about Islam and about myself; and I'm conforming to traditional Islam a lot more. The more I learn, the more I find that I'm distancing myself from friends and things I used to enjoy. It's like sometimes I can't deal with this duniya. The ignorance and apathy of everyone around me is frustrating, particularly those close to me. One of the hardest thing about being a revert to Islam, is watching those that you care about be blind to the truth. Even worse is when you know they're not blind, but for whatever reason, they're not willing to give up whatever it is that they have to give up, to be Muslim.

Islam is a religion of sacrifices, but the rewards far outweigh any sacrifice. Besides, anything Islam asks one to give up, it's better for you anyway. That sounds like I'm brainwashed, but it's the truth. I used to be stubborn when it came to following certain things. When I first became Muslim, I didn't give everything up at once. Some obvious things I gave up in the very beginning, but other things, like hijab and not being friendly with non mahrams, that had to come with time and experience; and in my experience, my life is better as a result of the changes I've made. I've come a long way, but we're all a work in progress. I like to think that I'm going forward and bettering myself. I like to think each change increases my iman and brings me closer to Allah swt and to the Muslim I want to be. I fear death only because I don't want to be before Allah in the state that I'm currently in. Everyone thinks I'm so good and I suppose by the standards of this world (or lack thereof), I am; but Islamically I'm nothing. My mom used to tell me when I was younger, don't compare yourself to the worst, compare yourself to the best. It's the same concept. Being virtuous in the eyes of the world means nothing. It's who you are in the eyes of Allah that matters.

I'm not even sure if this makes sense. I should be sleeping. I'm tired and I'm just typing whatever comes to my mind. InshAllah it's all coherent.

Walk thru?

2006-01-22T23:39:00.000-05:00

Last night my brother and I went to the Popeyes drive thru at around 11 pm. In line in front of us was a group of about 7 people. "So whats your point, Angee?" you might ask. Well they weren't in a car. This is one of those things that you have to see. I can't even describe the ghettoness of it. Why in the hell would you stand outside at 11 pm in the cold for some fried chicken?? I think the people were a little embarrassed to be doing that. Hell I would be! I saw a number of strange things yesterday that made me wish I had my camera. I'm gonna start taking my camera with me everywhere cause some of the things I see are hard to believe unless there' s proof.

I'm alive

2006-01-21T14:25:00.000-05:00

Good news! I am not dead. My short attention span and commitment phobia just caught up with me so I just stopped writing. I can't commit to things on a long term basis and I'm actually surprised I wrote so much to begin with. Anyways InshAllah I'll write when I have something interesting to say. Right now I'm drawing a blank but stay tuned!

Dedicated to : Holla Back Hijabi (Noor)

2005-04-28T23:26:00.000-04:00

Yeah Yeah. I'm not even gonna apologize for not updating. Whatever I have a life. I been busy/lazy as always. Nothing new there so on to my day. I had a really good day today alhamdulilah. I thought it was gonna suck because I was up until 4 am doing a paper. That happens way too often but I don't get any good ideas until my backs against the wall. I'm living proof of working better under pressure. Alhamdulilah I got it done but I was soo tired in class. Luckily we just watched a movie I already saw and then I went to Geo. We had a quiz which I may have screwed up because I was tired but I'm not sure. After Geo my good friend stalked me and then he walked me part way to my dorm. Someone please tell him stalking is illegal! Haha mazak dost :o)

After I got back to my room I wanted to have curry for lunch. I know I always spill curry on my shirts so I changed my shirt specifically to avoid that because I was wearing a new shirt. So anyway I took the shirt and draped it over the back of my chair and then I microwaved the curry. When I took the curry out of the microwave,however, I stupidly put it in the chair and guess what happened? Of course curry got on my new shirt :o(

I was supposed to have dinner with the holla back hijabi Noor at 7 but she was late (Loser!) Anyway we went to Curry Kabob House. We drove past it but alhamdulilah Noor saw it on the way back. We had fun and the food was good. I got chicken biryani, my favorite. When Noor was eating she made a mess of herself lol. She got chicken tikka masala all over her shirt so exactly when I was pointing it out the guy who worked at the restaurant came over. I dunno why he did, he wasn't even our waiter but anyway he heard me telling her about the mess she made and he started to point out all the places on her shirt that had sauce on it. He laughed and told her she was making a mess and then proceeded to hand her a napkin or try to clean her shirt himself, I'm not sure. Whatever he was doing, he managed to knock her fork off her plate making an even bigger mess. It was really hilarious! I think he got embarrassed cause then he just left.

After dinner I stopped by Noor's house to visit her mom and to pray maghrib. MashAllah Noor's mom is sooo awesome. She's so kind and you can just see the noor on her face (no pun intended). Of course the first thing she asked me was if I found someone to marry lol. Then she started to think of guys she knows who are looking to get married. She's so cute! She thought I came to sleep over and she kept telling me to stay the night lol. Anyway we hung out for bit at her house and then Noor drove me back. Now I have to go pray Isha and sleep early because I'm going to Ihop tomorrow inshAllah :o)

Fun day

2005-04-20T23:20:00.000-04:00

I wanted eggs since yesterday but when I went to the SAC to get it, the man told me that they fry the bacon and sausage on the same surface as the eggs so I was like damn! I ended up getting a croissant instead. I did something really ingenius yesterday too when I was getting breakfast. They didn't have any diet ice tea and it was too early for soda and too warm for hot tea. So what'd I do? I made my own. First I brewed the tea, then I added sweetener and lemon juice then I added ice and voila! Ice tea. Am I not clever? Necessity really is the mother of invention, but I digress.

I met Noor and chota bhai for lunch in Bleachers. He tried to ditch us because he was embarrassed to eat with us but we made him sit with us and it was fun. Stop frontin you know you had fun. He's sooo cuuuuuuuute. He tried to eat fast thinking we'd let him go when he was done but I told him he had to wait for us to finish. Afterwards I needed to vote in the MSA elections and I was waiting for someone to give my ballot to on the second floor of the Union. My good friend came by and came me a lil toy puppy that he won. Afterwards A hot hijabi (shout out to Nadia) came and we decided that we'd go hang out at Coldstone. I got At the Cocoa Cabana Banana something like that, without fudge. It was really good. Actually it was the best thing I've tried there.

After we got back to campus Noor and I went to visit chota bhai at work. I also went to say hi to my bipolar ex-friend's mom cause she's nice and she works in the same place. Noor had to go to class but chota bhai didn't want us to leave. I told him I'd hang out with him but I had to get my cell phone first cause I forgot it in Nadia's car. While I was waiting for to come he called and told me he was stuck in an elevator. Those elevators in the library are a deathtrap. I got stuck in the same one last week. Anyway when I was waiting for him to get out the elevator, Eric (the ex cripple) came and sat with me for bit. When chota bhai was free from the elevator we chilled until it was time for my class. I went to class and it sucked and then I came back to my room :o) The end.

Real life miracle

2005-04-19T15:17:00.000-04:00

Aren't you guys lucky? An update and it hasn't even been a week yet. I meant to update earlier today but a certain friend of mine prevented me from doing it. I don't even know why I let him. Alhamdulilah this friend has taught me to be more patient and forgiving cause Lord knows the old me wouldn't have been talking to him after what he did yesterday. This friend who shall remain nameless texts me when I'm in class and I text him. Anyway yesterday I replied to one of his texts and I said something that only he was supposed to see. So what does the genius do? Show it to one of his friends who I don't even talk to. How stupid is that???? I was sooo embarrassed! Obviously I didn't say anything bad but it was private and I was so heated yesterday. Well I have a simple solution to ensure that it doesn't happen again. I won't text him and say anything to that effect anymore. Aside from that he's a good friend and he has a good heart mashAllah so I had no choice but to forgive him :o) Besides he has Madeline and I don't want to put her at risk. She's been staying at his place since Sunday.

Anyway yesterday I was freaking out because I was having a minor crisis. It all started on Sunday when I noticed I was getting a pimple. Alhamdulilah I usually have a clear complexion except that unfortunate time of month but I'm not gonna get into that, don't want to make you guys awkward. So I was getting this pimple and so before I went to sleep I put this gel from Clinique on it. This gel is amazing. It's expensive but it does the job. By the next day the pimple is totally gone or a lot smaller and less noticeable. So I put the gel on but I didn't rub it in and I suppose I put a little too much but I was too lazy to take it off. I was like well at least I know the pimple's covered. When I woke up the next day and looked in the mirror I nearly fell over. Not cause I just now realize how ugly I was but because where the pimple was there was now this huge red mark!

Now I'm not conceited (not that much lol) but come on! Anyone with a huge red mark on their face would freak out. It looked like a bruise or something diagonal to my bottom lip. I was totally buggin. Alhamdulilah I was able to adequately cover it with foundation and concealer from (you guessed it!) Clinique. Then after I was a bit calmer I felt bad. I remembered a classmate of mine who has burn scars all over her face and stuff. Here I was freaking out about a red spot that would last a max of a few days when she has to live like that and makeup can't even cover it. See when things are going wrong we have to look at the people who have it a lot worse and count our own blessings and thank Allah swt.

When I got back to my room I kept putting a cream for upset skin on the mark from (all together now) Clinique! By this morning Alhamdulilah it was all healed except it kinda turned into a scab. Before I got in the shower I was freaking out a lil again cause scabs are dry and makeup can't adequately cover them. Then I remember my classmate and I said Alhamdulilah. At this time I'd like to explain that when I get out the shower my face gets really dry until I put Clinique clarifying lotion and follow it with Clinique moisturizer. I usually hate it because it's really uncomfortable until I go through this process then it's baby soft. So this morning was no different. I got out the shower and my face was dry and subhanAllah! The scab was so dry it started to come off. Cause you know, scabs come off when they're really dry. So now it's not even noticeable anymore. I never had anything heal this fast and I know it's only by the grace of Allah swt. Although I wasn't freaking out about my face I was a bit self conscious but everything's all good now. It's a miracle :o) Alhamdulilah!

Guess Who's Back...

2005-04-14T23:30:00.000-04:00

Yes that's right people. Angee's back! Sorry to all my fans for taking so long to update but absence makes the heart grow fonder innit? I've been a combination of busy and lazy so that's why I haven't updated. I'll try to be more regular with my updates but I can't promise anything. Nothing really important has happened since I last wrote and if anything did I can't remember so you guys haven't been missing much.

I'm so ready for this semester to be over, seriously. AMS, among other things, is pissing me off so much. It'll be really great when I don't have to be here anymore. It'll be good to be in my own house again and my own room. Man I'm like totally zoning out. If I can't even concentrate on updating my own blog, how can I concentrate on school. It seems like my attention span is gettin shorter and shorter.

It's now about 5 hours later and I'm finishing this update. I really wasn't kidding about the whole attention span thing. I just stopped writing and did something else. Then I had to do something for someone. I'm not really tired but I have nothing else to do so I think I'm gonna go to bed early. But then if I do then I'll wake up early and it'll make no sense since everyone in here will be sleeping and I'm too nice and considerate to go around making noise or turning the light on. I'm not saying that to make myself look good, it's just a fact. I think sometimes I'm too considerate of people. I didn't think there was such a thing but then it's like you expect people to be considerate too and a lot of the times they're not. I guess people are raised different or just don't care. Whatever. I was just talking about all this with a good friend of mine. Shout out to you :o) Wish we were chillin tonight, inshAllah some other time. K that's it. More to come later inshAllah.

Confession

2005-03-31T22:42:00.000-05:00

Boy this week went by really fast. It was just Monday! Time is just rushing right by. Nothing really noteworthy happened this week. I got a couple of A's so alhamdulilah for that. Don't hate, congratulate. It was my mom's birthday today. I got her this cute Nine West Bag that she loved. I came home early to surprise her, not sure if she noticed lol. Today my dad finally got me my Britney Spears CD In the Zone. It features such hits as Toxic and Me Against the Music (feat. Madonna). No I'm not joking. Not only am I a Spice Girls fan, I'm a fan of Britney Spears' music. I know she does a lot of retarded things so note I said I'm a fan of her music, not her. Although, I do think she's very beautiful. All you people need to stop hatin. Their music is catchy! Make fun of me all you want, but I have very diverse taste in music. I could listen to 50 cent and Game then I could switch it up to some Nirvana or Metallica, throw in some Faith Hill then even some classical like Tchaikovsky and Beethoven. I know some of you ignorant, one track minded people are like oh "you listen to white music "or "you listen to black music." (You know who you are) All I gotta say is broaden your horizons and stop being simple. Good music is colorless.

It seems like every time I drive home or back to school, I get road rage. I'm not gonna rant again about the idiots who are issued licenses every day but it pisses me off so much. Seriously, one idiot can cause such a backup! They should have a special highway for "Idiots Who Can't Drive." I promised I wouldn't rant. I added some new pics of me to my photo bucket check it out http://photobucket.com/albums/y59/Angee84/ .

Anyway the big confession is that I, Angee, have a personality disorder. Some of you might have noticed the extreme mood swings that I have ALL month long lol. I guess I've always known and it seems to affect those closest to me. To those of you that I've hurt as a result, I deeply apologize. I don't know why I do the things I do or behave the way I behave sometimes. I don't know why little things can set me off or why I see maliciousness in things that have none. Along with this personality disorder comes paranoia and irrationality. This affects my ability to have close relationships with people except in very rare cases. I can be completely normal one minute and then boom, Dr. Jekyll disappears and Mr. Hyde takes over.

If you've ever been a victim of this, I apologize again. It's something I'm trying to get a handle on and I really have no bad feelings towards anyone. I pray constantly that Allah take this burden from me and that He helps me to change. I guess I just have to work at it a little harder. Those of you who remain my friends despite it all, I thank you and love you. I ask forgiveness from all you and I ask that you bear with me in the future. Even though it might not seem like it, I do appreciate all of you. May Allah reward you all for you patience, Ameen.

torrential downpour

2005-03-28T21:42:00.000-05:00

A lot of you are probably wondering what happened to Saturday and Sunday. Well Saturday I was at the EZ conference all day and Sunday I was in a bad mood cause someone was being mean to me. So screw consecutive updates. I'll update when I feel like it. I still love all my fans though, keep reading Angee's World. Muah to you all! Anyway the conference was a big success. I hung out with my Egyptian sisters. Shout out to you guys especially Nadia (love you muah!). It was a lot of fun. A really huge turn out. Lots of very good speakers mashAllah. Even with my fear of crowds I still thought it was a good experience. May Allah reward all those who helped out in any way in the duniya and the hereafter, Ameen.

I never realize how crazy some Muslim sisters could be until Saturday. Say the word marriage and they become rabid! There was so much chaos to get into a talk about marriage. Yes just a talk. No husband giveaways, no matchmaking, merely a talk. I don't know if they thought they'd learn the secret to landing that doctor husband or what but I was just in awe. MashAllah the talk was interesting, nothing really new though. I got the distinct feeling that a lot of the sisters were disappointed. What gave me that idea? Oh just the fact that they started getting up and leaving before it was over. The whole day was great though.

Yesterday I didn't really do much. The funniest thing happened though. I caught my brother sitting in the car listening to my Spice Girls Cd and looking at the lyrics (maybe to sing along? lol). I didn't have the CD in the CD player at the time, which means he must've put it in himself. Sorry to blow up your spot cutiepie I just thought that was funny as hell. The look of guilt on your face when I knocked on the car window. Classic deer in headlights.

The weather really sucked today. What an understatement. On my way to french class, my skirt got soaked, so I had to sit in class with a wet skirt. Not fun. On my way back my stockings got wet. Rain's fine as long as I'm inside. I got to take a nice nap. The sound of rain is very soothing. Man it's making me wanna sleep right now. Too bad I have hw :o(

I'm sick :o(

2005-03-25T18:40:00.000-05:00

So my remedy didn't work. I woke up sick this morning with my throat hurting really bad. This sucks. I hate being sick. I took some medicine but I don't think it helped much. I haven't eaten a meal all day. I haven't really had an appetite. Last night I had the weirdest dream omg. I dreamt I was in an elevator. I have a lot of elevator dreams because I have this underlying fear that I'll be in an elevator one day and it'll keep going up until it goes through the roof or the elevator will lose control and keep going down really fast and I'll die. I have so many of these dreams.

Anyway I dreamt I was in an elevator with some other people and somehow it left the building and started going through the air then all of a sudden the elevator turns into a plane with no pilot and it's dangerously close to the ground and it almost runs people over. Eventually the plane crashes into a building and causes a lot of damage. I get scared that people are gonna blame me and think it's another terrorist attack. Anyway oddly enough only one person is injured or dies throughout the whole ordeal and everyone knows it's not my fault. So I say Alhamdulilah (Praise God) that everything turned out pretty much ok and I was safe. Then God appears! Seriously in my dream this person was supposed to be God. He only came for a few seconds and he smiled at me and kinda winked and I think I was the only person who saw him. He looked a little like Santa Claus. He was kinda old and he had a white beard and he wasn't really tall and he was little chubby. Bizarre huh?

I decided to skip the first day of the EZ conference because of my illness. InshAllah I'll feel better tomorrow so I can attend. I'm doing some work so at least I'm being a little productive. I think I should eat something even though I don't want to. Please keep me in your duas.

sick?

2005-03-25T00:04:00.000-05:00

I didn't really do anything today. I had to run a few errands. I intended to do some school work today, never happened. The night is young, it still might. I think I'm getting sick. My sinuses are acting up. I'm gonna have to medicate myself. This is what I do, I anticipate my illness and stop it before it's full blown. It usually works, alhamdulilah. I've been on the brink of illness so many times this semester. InshAllah it'll work this time. Today at the supermarket I bought belgian hazelnut cafe and I also bought extra creamy whip cream. I'm gonna try that out. Anyone want some?

rain

2005-03-23T17:17:00.000-05:00

When it rains, it pours, no pun intended. It's a miserable day and I'm miserable. I'm so sick of everything. Things could be going fine one minute and the next everything is crap. I'm in a really bad mood, a combination of frustration, sadness, anger, helplessness and hopelessness. Why can't things ever be simple? Perhaps I'm exaggerating but when it seems like everything in my life is going wrong, how am I supposed to feel? Allah help me. Please keep me in your duas.

Mommy me?

2005-03-22T19:54:00.000-05:00

Today I met a friend for lunch at a halal Mexican restaurant in Manhattan, Mariachi's. The food was pretty good especially the chicken quesedillas, way better than EOB (duh!). The chicken enchiladas were good but mine are better and I'm not saying that to be conceited, it's just true. The steak fajitas were excellent and that's prolly the best thing on the menu. It was kind of expensive and the service was extremely lacking because they were so busy and there only two waiters. I had fun overall and I'd go there again. Shout out to Abid, always fun chillin with you :o) especially when I pull out the fob accent and you get all embarrassed haha.

After that I was in some bizarro world where I was a mom. I picked Justin and my brother up from school and then I took them to the supermarket. They both wanted to pick up everything they saw. The supermarket is the worst place ot take a kid (a toystore being the first) When we got home, I had to make them dinner. My brother wanted Sloppy Joes so that's what I made. They were both driving me up the wall. You'd think a 16 yr old would know how to act. Not so. When he's with Justin, they act the same age lol.

After I picked up my brother and Justin and before they terrorized me at the supermarket, I visited my grandma. She's so funny. I got to play with my aunty's baby that my grandma babysits. She's so little and cute and she liked me. She was smiling at me the whole time. It's been a while since I held a baby so I was happy about that. She even liked my brother but for some strange reason he kept calling her "it." That kid is so weird. He looked cute holding her though (again don't get any ideas buster!). Haha he doesn't want me to tell my mom about the dream I had where he had a daughter, I wonder why...

I got my Spice World CD that I bought from E-Bay today featuring such hits as "Spice Up Your Life" and "Too Much." So, I'm really excited about that. The booklet has the lyrics so I can learn the songs and sing along, well the ones I don't already know :o) Yeah that's right, ain't no shame in my game. Matter of fact, I think I'm gonna go blast it right now before Law and Order comes on.

headache

2005-03-21T21:32:00.000-05:00

I have a really bad headache. I think I'm gonna go to bed early, for real this time. I didn't do much today. I did my laundry and I read a chapter of one of my books for class. I attempted to do my anthro hw, but I got distracted. I fed Justin and then I did his hw with him and then I watched Law and Order. That's all folks.

Mallrat

2005-03-20T19:04:00.000-05:00

I went to the mall today. I got lotion and mascara from clinique and because my purchase was over $20 I got this really cool bag and like eye shadow and lipstick etc. I don't wear all that crap so I gave most of the stuff to my mom and kept the bag, moisturizer and eye makeup remover. When I was in the line at Victoria's Secret the fobbiest Guyanese girls were standing behind me. OMG I can't stand Guyanese girls. The guys are bad enough but the Girls are so dumb. This is why I hate telling people I'm Guyanese. The majority of Guyanese people are retarded. I was thinking how nice it would be to marry someone with the same culture as mine. I mean I love my country and stuff. It's beautiful. As nice as the common ground would be, I can't bear the thought of marrying a Guyanese guy. I think I'd prefer to not marry at all lol. Of course not all Guyanese guys are bad, but I'd rather not take that chance.

After Victoria's Secret I had to go to CVS. I hate when I have to buy embarrasing stuff from the pharmacy lol. I'm just happy all the cashiers were female or I'd feel worse. I got a banana smoothie, it was really good. Although I started to feel nauseous after because I hadn't really eaten all day. When I was waiting for my mom, Justin and I got pretzels. I got a mozzarella one and he got garlic. He always gets garlic and he hates it. Of course he didnt eat it.

While I was waiting, my aunty and I saw this lady who I guess had a really bad wedgie because she had her hand all up there trying to pull it out. WHY would you do that in a mall????? Some things should just not be done in public. Like picking one's nose. Why do people think it's ok to do that in public? That's gross. It's so stupid when they do it in their cars. Do you think that because you're in your car people can't see you? Hello, unless you have really dark tints PEOPLE CAN SEE YOU. Whatever you're doing in your car, people can see you. Man people do the grossest things when they think people aren't watching.

My mom became a thief today lol. She accidentally picked up someone else's bag when she was leaving and didn't realize it until afterwards, soo funny. I just ate some really good goat biryani just now. I usually eat with my hands when I'm home (or even in public sometimes lol) but that wasn't too well thought out. The biryani was really spicy and I need to take my contacts out but I'm afraid. It's gonna burn like hell. I know this because I've done this before. I wanna take a nap but it's too late for that. I' ll just try to sleep early.

I've been having an inordinate number of blonde moments recently. Today I had two. My mom, uncle, and aunty were talking about this man who committed suicide. The man is the husband of my mom's former boss. So my uncle said something about their house. Then my mom was saying something about his car and my uncle knew what kind of car it was. I was like how you know what he drove and my uncle was like I was there meaning he went to their house once and I knew that but forgot. Anyway I just blurted out, "You were there when he committed suicide???" Everyone was just quiet.

Later at the mall, my uncle gave me this sundae thing to try. So I was trying to eat it but the spoon wouldn't come out. So I tried for a while until my aunty just looks at me and says, "You do realize that you need to take the top off first right?" Then she asked my mom how much she was paying for me to go to college lol. Anyway this blog is long enough. :o)

I hate AOL

2005-03-19T23:16:00.000-05:00

I had almost finished my blog when boom, AOL logs me off. How freakin gay is that??? If I weren't in a competition, I wouldn't have posted tonight. Anyway last night I predicted right. After I got ready for bed, I turned the TV on. This muslim comedian was on Nightline. He was soo funny omg. I bought his CD today. Then I watched some rerun of the Chris Rock show. Then a movie I really love, Best of the Best, was playing so I had to watch it. It's one of those 80's martial arts movies. They're kinda cheesy now I guess but I still love them especially Jean Claude Van Damme movies like Bloodsport and Kickboxer. Those were awesome. These movies were really big in Guyana. Almost as big as Indian movies, but not quite.

It's so weird how fast the time passes when I'm home. The first day of vacation is over already. Last night I forgot to lock my bedroom door so starting from 8 am everyone kept coming into my room and waking me up. My brother and my aunty especially omg. I learned my lesson. Tonight I'm locking the door. When I couldn't take it anymore, I just got up. I hung out with my brother and Justin for a lil bit. Justin tried to rip my puppet, Madeline's legs off today lol. He really hates her, especially when she tries to kiss him. He says I hate stupid dolls and I hate stupid Madeline. Once someone kidnapped Madeline and put her in the fridge. She was there until my mom found her. I wasn't sure who did it. I suspected Justin or my brother but now I think it was Justin. He even tried to throw her out the window once.

I was really scanner happy today. I scanned some pics of me when I was little in Guyana. You can check them out at: http://photobucket.com/albums/y59/Angee84/

Justin was watching Japanese cartoons all day, so corny. I think that's what it was I'm not sure. There's this nice Japanese guy in my class. I'm dying to tell him konichuwa (that's hi in Japanese for you people who ain't up on that) lol. The other day he picked up my book when it fell and I really wanted to say Aregato (thank you) to him but my brother said that's racist and my roommate said it's offensive.

What do you guys think? When I say shukran (arabic for thank you) to the guys who work in like the bodegas or newstands, they get all excited. Whatever, I'd say it to the Japanese guy if he was alone but he sits with some Japanese girl and they might talk about me in Japanese lol. This reminds of that episode of Seinfeld where Elaine thought the Korean ladies at the Nail Salon were talking about her so she brought George's dad who speaks Korean to translate in case they were. That episode was soo funny. OK I'm done.

home at last

2005-03-18T22:15:00.000-05:00

I think I've figured out the reason for my moods of late. I don't want to get into it since the vast majority of you reading this are guys and I don't want to make anyone awkward (especially you chota dost lol). So it's good to know I'm not crazy. For a while I felt a bit postal there.

I had my French exam this morning. It was kinda hard. I don't think I could top my last score :o( I came home and tried to take a nap but then my dumb brother came home from school and prevented me from taking it. He wouldn't let me go to sleep and by the time he left me alone, I wasn't tired anymore. Now I'm sleepy. I just watched like 3 Law and Orders in a row. I think I have a headache but I'm not sure. I had one before cause when I drove home I was blasting Madonna and the Spice Girls in the car and singing along. Ain't no shame in my game.

I read the blog of a Mets fan. I just feel so bad for these otherwise intelligent losers, I mean people. lol. Why would you back a team that sucks? What's the point of that? Well it's good to have hope I guess. A fool's hope, but hope nonetheless. Enough trash talking for tonight, I think I'm gonna go to bed. It feels so weird going to bed before midnight. It's something I aspire for when I'm at school but it never works out. At home everyone else is sleeping so it's not that hard. Maybe I'll just end up watching TV. That always happens I get ready for bed and I lie down and I'm like let's just see what's on TV for a few mins then I end up watching some Lifetime movie and before I know it, it's 3 am. Gone to bed, I hope.

renewed competition

2005-03-17T19:22:00.000-05:00

I really didn't feel like writing a blog last night. I just wasn't in the mood. Luckily for me my competition had to take down his entry for whatever reason so the competition starts over tonight. I think my competition is embarassed of me. At first he didn't want me to shout him out on my blog and he won't even give me shout outs. Oh well. I don't know what Madeline sees in him. You all know Madeline, my puppet. She's a traitor. She likes the competition.

I'm so mad, I have an exam tomorrow. Who gives an exam the day before Spring Break. If it wasn't for that I would've gone home today. Actually nm. I missed that classed twice in a row last week due to the jury summons and the car not starting. I don't think I can miss that class for the rest of the semester. So on second thought I'm glad we have that exam so everyone else has to go. You know what they say, misery loves company :o)

ennui

2005-03-16T01:08:00.000-05:00

I had the weirdest dream that my 16 yr old brother had a baby girl. oye! you better not get any ideas, mom'll kill you. She was a cute baby though and I was holding her. That dream reminds me how much I wanna have my own. My biological clock is ticking lol. I really like kids. They're awesome. InshAllah I'll have four of my own.

I feel really bored and restless these days. This in turn is causing me to be tired all the time. I've been here too long. I need to get out of here. I hope that the week off will help me shake this ennui. It's like I'm trapped in monotony and the days are just passing me by. Day in and day out, it's the same crap. My dreams provide a respite. A change from the hum drum. Maybe that's why all I seem to want to do is sleep, to escape this angst. Hmm sleep, that sounds good. This entry ends here.

weird dreams

2005-03-14T20:45:00.000-05:00

Last night I had the weirdest dreams. One was very sad and I don't want to talk about it. It's too vivid and if it ever happened, I'd probably be inconsolable. The second dream was bizarre. I dreamt my parents were preparing for a nikkah (wedding for you non-Muslims) that was going to happen in my house but it wasn't my nikkah. It was between this guy who wanted to marry me in real life and some random girl. When I checked the guy's away message it said nikkah and it had my address, then in parentheses it said, "but I'm not marrying Angee." lol weird. Alhamdulilah for that though, that he wasn't marrying me I mean.

This morning I had to wake up an hour early so I could do my French hw. While I was doing it this nice person offered to make me breakfast and then later on he offered me his blanket cause I forgot mine. Awwwww, isn't that kind of him? If only I had more friends like that :oP I usually take an hour to get ready but today I was dressed, hijab and all in under 15 mins Alhamdulilah. Of course I showered before hand. Before I started my assignment I showered, I don't go to class without showering. I'm really into cleanliness. People at Stony Brook aren't up on that. I see too many people wander into class with their hair all messed up, crust still in their eyes, dried up drool on their face, wearing PJ's. That's not cute. The very least you can do is wash your face before class but whatever. I might be odd but if I can't shower, I'm not going anywhere. I understand that sometimes situations arise but I don't care.

French class was fun today, I was sitting with these two gora (white) guys and they were hilarious. After that I went to Roth and I had to call the Quad office cause my phone isn't working yet again. Honestly this is like the 3rd time, I dunno what's up with that. We just got a new phone two weeks ago. My neck really hurts I dunno why. I think I slept really awkwardly last night. I couldn't get comfortable because of my lack of blanket. I even sleep with it in the summer. It's more a comfort thing than a warmt thing. I'm really upset that I forgot it.

My Anthro class sucked as usual. It's always the same stupid people in my class who love to hear themselves speak yet they say nothing of relevance. I can't stand those idiots I'm so serious. This one guy, the sound of his ugly voice just irritates me and as soon as I hear it I completely zone him out. There's at least one in every class. I had BBQ chicken for dinner, it was really good. My sweetie pie left me a voicemail and it was the cutest thing ever. Anyway I should start my work. Muah to all my faithful readers!

birthday

2005-03-14T10:03:00.000-05:00

Today is my cute little friend's birthday. Happy Birthday chota dost!!! Muah! InshAllah it'll be a good one.

I wanna go home

2005-03-13T21:29:00.000-05:00

I came back to school today. Really gay. Of course I wanna go home. When I left today I packed up the car and I forgot my purse which contained my keys, my wallet, and my cell phone. Alhamdulilah something told me I was forgetting it when I almost got on the Belt Pkwy. I stopped the car to check the back to see if it was there and it wasn't. So yeah I would've came to Stony and had to turn back and go all the way back home if I didn't realize it. That's the good news. The bad news is I forgot my comforter, which means I'll be sleeping miserably this whole week. Even my naps are gonna suck :o(

When I came back I did the usual, unpacked and washed my hair. When I was unpacking my clothes, I saw that the curry stain didn't come out of one of my shirts. How many shirts am I gonna lose to curry?? omg. Then I had to go to the library. After I got back, I went to the supermarket then my suitemate and I went to Coldstone's. I really shouldn't have done that to myself lol. I got the Oreo Overload. It wasn't bad. I finished it for the first time. I usually never finish my Coldstones. I usually get the founders favorite, this was a good change.

Anyway right now I really wanna go home. Being here just depresses me. My room phone doesn't work and I don't really get service in here so I really have no one to talk to. I dunno how if happened or if I did it to myself but I'm not at home in my suite. I don't not get along with anyone, it's just I feel like they'd rather not have me around. Anyways I'd rather not be around. I just want to be in my own house with my brother and Justin where I don't feel ostracized. Oh well soon I'll be out of here inshAllah. (If I can pass AMS. ) Keep me in your duas :o) I'm not gonna let this stuff bother me cause SubhanAllah, I'm blessed in so many other ways.

blah

2005-03-12T23:16:00.000-05:00

I'm tired. I'm in a bad mood. I think the cookies are burning. This still counts an entry.

Friday At Last

2005-03-11T16:07:00.000-05:00

Today began as another gay day. I woke up about an hour after I was supposed to so I had to hurry up and get ready for class while packing simulataneously. I was suprised and happy when I got everything done in time. When I went to put my stuff in the car, I realized I had left the headlights on since Wed :o( Of course the battery was dead and it was snowing. I called my cripple friend up and he suggested I call campus police. Muah to you again! While I was waiting some nice gora (white) guy came by and asked me if I needed help. He tried to jump start the car but it didn't work so I waited for the parking services people. The man came after a while and he started the car. By then it was too late for me to go to class. I hate showing up for class when it's half way through. That's so stupid.

So I turned the car off and went back to my room to get the rest of my stuff to just go home. When I got back to the car, it was dead again but someone helped me. I suppose in a way that it was good that the car wouldn't start. It was snowing a lil hard and my the time it started working again it had stopped. Allahu alam.

When I got to Queens, I went to the bank and the supermarket. Right now I'm doing laundry and I'm about to start cleaning. Well actually I think I'm gonna go play Mario Kart with my baby. He's so sweet. He just came up to me and said, "Will you play with me? No one wants to play with me." How can I say no to that? LOL my brother just told me I was a Jew-lover and I stink of Jew. Dude, wth is wrong with you? Why are you so anti-semitic? If you convert to Islam we'll never have peace in the Middle East.

uneventful

2005-03-10T21:02:00.000-05:00

Nothing remotely interesting happened today. I woke up and went to my classes. On the way to my SBS I saw my friend who broke his foot bowling. He was walking with a cane.I called him a cripple while pointing and laughing. I suppose that was mean but I've done much worse to him lol. I've made a habit of embarassing him in public. If you're reading this friend, you know it's all love :o) Muah! I came back to my room and I took a nap. Now I'm bored because Law and Order is over. I should do my homework. My roommate's not here :oD yaaaaaay!!! To my competition : I'm still in the game (no pun intended).

Gay day

2005-03-09T22:17:00.000-05:00

The competition was hoping I'd forfeit and not write a blog tonight. Not a chance bozo!! Ok so I had the most God awful morning. I forgot to call to see if I had jury duty and when did I remember? At 2 am. Of course that meant I'd have to appear because that's how my life is. So that meant I'd have to be up by 6 am so I could make to Queens by 9 am. I had to leave early cause I knew there would be traffic. So I woke up and prayed and had my Strawberries and Cream oatmeal. I left my room at 7 am. When I got downstairs the car was all iced up so it took a lil while to clean it. Then I couldn't get the door opened because I didn't have any de-icer. I somehow managed to get the back door open and I climbed to the front to open the front door. Meanwhile the wind is blowing the snow around and I'm freezing.

Of course the car had no gas so I had to get gas in the freezing early morning air. I pull up to the pump, my credit card doesn't work. I try it 5 times then I figure the pump must be defective so I move to another pump. Same thing happens 3 more times before I realize I was holding the card wrong. I finally get my gas and leave. 347 wasn't really clear so there was a lot of traffic and I had to drive really slow, under 25 mph. When I finally got to Northern State it was worse over there. I was going 10 mph, no exaggeration. At 8:55 am, I had just passed exit 43. There was no way in hell I'd even make it to court in the next 2 hours. So I call them up and what does the lady say? "Honey, you're a student. Just mail in your summons with proof of enrollment." After I hung up I starting screaming and banging my hands against the steering wheel. All that aggravation for nothing!!! The only thing that kept me sane was my Spice Girls CD and no I'm not kidding. Ain't no shame in my game.

So I exit at 42 Huntington with the intention of simply turning around and heading back. Easy, right? WRONG. I got lost and was driving around looking for the entrance to Northern. The car slipped on the ice so many times omg. So finally at a stop light I pull up next to this guy's car and ask him how I can get to Northern. He looks at me all weird and when the light turned green I realized why. When the road curved a little, there was a big green sign that said Northern State.

I finally made it back without damage to my car or person (Alhamdulilah), but many close calls. Then I went right to my bed to sleep it off. After I woke up things were better. I saw this weird African witchcraft thing in my anthro class. Then in my Indian film class, a girl with really bad breath sat next to me. I felt like I was going to throw up every time she exhaled. People do yourselves a favor, if you suspect you might have bad breath, if someone's hinted it to you, invest in a bottle of listerine. You only have to use it for 30 secs twice a day. Now, I'm sure none of you have bad breath but you might wanna try it just in case. I use it and I know I don't have bad breath. I know I'm neurotic about dental hygiene but at least I know no ones feeling nauseous from my breath, inshAllah lol. Halitosis is not cute ( no offense to anyone who has it).

I was so bored in my Indian Film class and then I looked down and I realized that someone had written Cathy Andersen has a....(let's just say male genitalia). People in Stony are so juvenile lol. I was so bored that I found it hysterical and I was just grateful for the distraction. After two hours I couldn't take that girl's breath anymore so I left an hour early. Morals of the story: Ice is gay. Jury duty is gay. Bad breath is gay. Use listerine :o)

snow sucks

2005-03-08T23:13:00.000-05:00

Nothing really interesting happened today. After fajr I stayed up and did my paper then I went back to sleep. I had a really bizarre dream about the MSA brothers. I dreamt they were partying and drinking and dancing with scantily clad women. One brother in particular was doing some really unislamic things. I don't know why I had that dream lol. Right after that I dream a kali Muslim girl was bothering me because I didn't use my Muslim name and she said I wasn't Muslim enough and she was just annoying me in general. None of the other sisters could stand her. That was it.

For breakfast I had strawberries and cream oatmeal. It was really good. I love oatmeal. The weather today was just awful omg. Driving in snow is not cool. I've been in my room since like 1 :15 pm. Maybe that's why I'm a lil cranky. That and the fact that everyone around me seems to be conspiring to piss me off. I'm so ready to graduate (inshAllah) and move on. I've had enough of Stony and everyone here (mostly). Every day brings me closer alhamdulilah. I just get really aggravated and I want quiet and time by myself. The weekends provide a much needed respite but then it's back to the grind. I get so depressed on Sundays when it's time to come back here. Last semester I use to come back early in the mornings on Sunday. This semester I can barely get myself out of my house before late afternoon. I just dread coming back here. It's always so freaking loud in here and it's driving me crazy. I'm so close to snapping.

I can't live with people, I just have such a low tolerance for everything. I need to learn patience. I just dont understand why people need to talk to loud. You're sitting right next to each other dammit. Talk like a normal person in a normal pitch. Damn snow. The car has no gas, I just realized that. It was on E today when I drove to the union lol. That sucks. InshAllah by the end of the month I'll return my uncles car finally and get my own. I miss my eclipse. What a sexy car. Bright red. RIP Charlene (that's what I called it). I felt obligated to write this blog cause I'm competing with someone. Sorry if it was boring. Ordinarily I wouldn't have written if nothing interesting happened. To my competition: Anything you can do, I can do--- BETTER!!! InshAllah more entertaining blogs to come.

new record?

2005-03-07T22:25:00.000-05:00

Wow I think this is a record for me, 3 consecutive days. We'll see how long that lasts. I'm gonna try to be politically correct in this blog. I have a 5 page paper due tomorrow. Why am I not doing it? I think cause I have self destructive tendencies. Anyway, today I saw proof that backs up my idea about revoking old peoples' licenses. This old lady totally rear- ended this other car. No one was hurt alhamdulilah but the front of her car was jacked up. Lucky for the other person I don't think their SUV was too damaged. See if she didn't have her license, that accident wouldn't have happened. I respect the elderly but they should NOT be driving.

So everything I wrote after the above just got erased. How gay!! (No offense to any gays who might read this) Um I went to the gym today. I was happy that transsexual wasn't there. I'm not sure if I'd have to keep my hijab on in front of a transexual. Does anyone know? That would a suck. A women's only gym and this transexual coming and messing up my flow. (No offense to you trannies aight!--lil Ali G. reference) I miss Ali G. That show is hilarious. Those of you who haven't seen it yet, check it out, he's hilarious. Today I went to the bank and the supermarket. I saved about $2 on Crest Vivid White toothpaste. It was on sale so I bought two. I'm a waldbaums smart shopper :o)

I just saw the "Muslim" wrestler. He has a nice beard (but someone else has a better one lol. shout out to you). Um I love the little Arab thingie he wears on his head. Those things are so cute. I love koofis too and yarmulkes (yeah yeah I'm a traitor). Wow! I dunno what's with me and the head things. Except sikh turbans. I'm not into those (No offense to any Sikhs) My brother says if I bring home a Jew he'll kill me. I believe him. That kid is a psycho with anger management issues but I love him anyway. Shout out to Papi Shampoo. Muah! See you on Friday inshAllah. Convert to Islam inshAllah! haha I had to. Tu quieres candela? Keep holdin Queens down with your lil Spic self (No offense to the spics). Does anyone know why latino people are called Spic? If you don't I'll tell you.

sunday

2005-03-06T21:37:00.000-05:00

Wow another consecutive update! Nothing really interesting happened today. I came back to school. I had a lot of road rage on the way here. OMG some people are sooo dumb. All it takes is one idiot to hold up traffic and waste my time. Stupid people should not be given licenses. People in Suffolk CANNOT drive. I get so frustrated everytime I exit Northern and get on 347. Stupid old gora people. l0l thats sounds bad. I don't think old people should be allowed to drive. I think licenses should be revoked once someone is 65. Old people driving are a hazard to themselves and everyone else on the road, not to mention an annoyance. I cleaned my room and I washed my hair. Right now, I'm a lil bored. Maybe that's why I'm updating my blog. I could be doing some work or maybe I should go sleep. Last night I was afraid I'd miss fajr so I waited for it then went to sleep. I'm a lil tired. My roommate's still not back yet, alhamdulilah! lol.

Tomorrow's gonna be a good day inshAllah. I only have one class in the morning and that's it. Then I have to run some errands. I bought strawberry and cream oatmeal today. I really love oatmeal, seriously! It's awesome. I have a friend whose ears turn red when he's tired and I think it's the cutest thing in the world! awwwww!!! Tum bahut cute ho, dost! :o) This blog shows how short my attention span is. Theek hai, yeh bas hai. Until next time....

yaay an update

2005-03-06T01:06:00.000-05:00

So I didnt die or anything. I just got busy with school so I couldn't update. This semester sucks so much omg. I'm dying to finish it and get out of Stony. I've had just about enough. I'm tired right now but I can't go to sleep because like the procrastinator that I am, I've waited until the last moment to do my laundry. So um yeah this semester sucks. I hate AMS. I took the GRE's and it turned out alright Alhamdulilah. Even better is the fact that I don't need it.

i dunno the date

2005-01-15T23:23:00.000-05:00

I just got home from dinner with my family. A whole bunch of us went out for my dad's birthday. We went to some restaurant in Manhattan. It was West Indian cuisine. It wasn't that bad but I told them to make my curry spicy and they didn't. I just realize I had curry for lunch at home too lol. At least that was real curry, spicy and everything. The weirdest thing happened when me and my brother were walking to the car. We walked past some falafel shop and some weird man grabbed my arm and my brother's arm out of nowhere and started speaking arabic or something. I was like what? Then everyone else started laughing. Yesteday I made chicken enchiladas and rice and beans. It was pretty good for especially for a first try. Everyone said I should make it again. I want to go to the supermarket so I can get the stuff to make brownies or cookies or something. I love baking and cooking. It's therapeutic to me for some reason. Since I came home I became addicted to Nintendo 64. If I don't find someone to play with me, I play by myself. My 5 yr old cousin usually plays with me and I can usually convince my bro to play with me too. I'm a lil tired so I might sleep or play some more N64 :o)

jan 10

2005-01-10T20:32:00.000-05:00

So much for going to bed early. I ended up sleeping after 6 am. I was having a long discussion/argument with a friend of mine until around 3 am when I had enough. Then I had to call another friend because she was having issues with someone that I dismissed 2 weeks ago. People can be so fake sometimes, it is unbelievable. They can lie right to your face and not even blink. This is something I'm incapable of so it's hard for me to imagine how other people can do it. Seriously in most cases what's the point of lying anyway? Allah knows the truth, you can't hide stuff from Him. So why hide it from other people when Allah is the only judge that matters anyway? So anyway I ended my friendship with this guy 2 weeks ago. I'm not sure if this guy is bipolar, psychotic, or just a hypocrite. Anyway enough about that, I say good riddance to bad rubbish. It just sucks that guys like that give my country a bad name. See this is why I always tell girls to stay away from Guyanese guys. My brother told about this theory he had today. He said that the brown skin Guyanese guys are the ones that you can't trust lol ( he's not as fair as I am but he's not that dark). So anyway I think he might be on to something as bad as that sounds. Or maybe it's because most Guyanese guys are dark anyway so you can't trust most of them lol. I just chilled at home today. Nothing noteworthy happened. This man from naseeb sent me a message because he wanted me to get to know his son for marriage lol. That was kinda bizarre. Actually if they didn't live in Cali and they were closer I might have given it some thought. The son is religious, he's a doctor, he want's his wife to be a homemaker. Doesn't sound too bad eh? Okay I promised my kid I'd play video games with him so I have to end here.

aaj

2005-01-09T22:36:00.000-05:00

Today I learned how to make aaloo chawal. It's one of my favorite foods so I figured I should learn how to make it. It came out pretty good actually. I didn't put enough mirch but inshAllah next time. I enjoy cooking so much. It's more fun than eating. It's like you have all these raw materials and you put them together and add a lil heat and you got food. It's cool. I seriously need to learn how to cook some other stuff though. I mean besides American food like BBQ chicken and stir fry etc. My mom's always nagging me to learn how to cook "real" food like curry and dhal lol. She says whos gonna wanna marry you when you. Yesterday I was like moooooom I'm not gonna get married for a while anyway. I do want to learn but I don't want to give her the satisfaction of me succumbing to her nagging lol. Maybe this summer I'll get my grandma to teach me how to cook traditional food or my older brother, Vijay. Ironically, I think he's a better cook than my mom. Anyway I am. I mean anything I cook, I can cook better than my mom lol. My dad complains when she makes the channa and I don't :o) My sleep pattern's all screwed up. I can't seem to get up before noon anymore. I guess it's cause I have no reason to. I'm really gonna try to though. I think I'm gonna ask someone to keep calling me until I wake up. I also need to sleep earlier. I can accomplish so many things if I just wake up before half the day is gone. I've become so nocturnal. Does anyone know how to make paragraphs? I hate writing in just blocks. It's so not aesthetically pleasing. I have decide what I want to do when I graduate and I have to decide soon. I'm talking to my mom about it so I'm gonna decide soon inshAllah. Ok bas I think this is enough for today. I go days without saying anything and then once I start writing I can't stop. Maybe I'll keep updating this.

Jan 1

2005-01-01T23:32:00.000-05:00

I slept all day today. How am i gonna get to sleep tonight?